ever felt that emptiness when someone just isnt there? ever felt that you need your questions to be answered so badly that you would wait forever? ever felt so empty handed when something that is bound to be yours just slip right out of your hand? ever felt so mindless when you just dont know what is happening ... ever felt so miserably lost when you aint told of a reason you were left behind?
in mere seconds, people so close and dearly to you can just walk out of your life without you having a trace to find him/her back ... its amazing isnt it ... one second, one split second could change the whole game play of your life ...
a few days back ... it was raining so heavily at night, people would just cuddle in their blanket and sleep soundly till morning, but not for me ... i cant seem to sleep and yes i stayed up all night ... sucks being me LOL ... in the end i went out for a drive, first to greenlane then to the coastal highway and ended at a housing area somewhere near town, a place where is close to the sea, the big wide unending stream of salty water we call the sea ... i was there for quite sometime as i gaze up onto the 16th floor of an apartment ... that is when i counted floor by floor from 1 to 16 ... was practically staring at it for so freaking long that i didnt notice the time ... i parked my car and walked to 7eleven ... ya u must be wondering why would i walk when i can just drive there ... lets just say i love walking under the rain and taking a stroll down the road once in awhile ... just as i left my car ... walk out to the road and on my way to the store, there was this huge thunder that came after a dark blue lightning... am no kidding, it lighted up the night for a second ... it was amazing yet scary to watch ... despite the rain, i still kept walking to the store and as i open the door, the cashier working at the 7 eleven said 'bang, kamu okay tak? mau payung?' lol i just smiled at him and said its okay and bought ice cream ... mango ice cream haha ... you people must think that im mad right, as to eat ice cream when im soaking wet and so freaking cold ... but yea, i just had to taste that ice cream ... it reminds me of someone ^^ ... the expression on the cashier's face was so funny when i bought the ice cream haha yet i cant smile ... sat beside the store and just slowly ate my ice cream ... my whole body was practically shaking but bite by bite reminds me of the day i first time had that ice cream ... it was a normal ice cream with mango jelly in the middle ..
as soon as i finish my ice cream, i went back in the store to buy some chewing gum as i felt like biting something ... i walked around for abit and pass arizona, there was quite alot of people still playing games at this late hour ... at around erm i forget what time, the rain remain the same as i walk back to my car to warm off ... but my plan back fired because as i am soaking wet and it feels so uneasy when you are contempt in a car with another temperature ... so in the end i turn on the air cond haha ... and continue to freeze ... and i dont know is it that 'chunted' that when i turn on the radio, the song thunder by boys like girls was playing on mixfm ... as the rain got smaller, i slowly drove back home ... i reach home and made myself a hot milo and sat down on my couch watching KUNGFU PANDA lol ... and the end i feel asleep right infront of the tv
it all seem so real, the thunder, the lightning, the song, the rain ... maybe i was suppose to be there that night ... and i am glad i did
the funny thing bout that day was, i couldnt recall which day it was ... its either im too blur or i had short term memory lost ... well i will never forget that lightning which i saw ... and that loud roar of thunder ... but all in the end i will not forget that night ... i did alot of silly things but i think its all worth while haha
oh well ... gonna go to bed now >.< having class tomorrow and im sitting here 4am in the morning typing this post ... WOW lol ... no pictures sorry ... but i dont think anyone would read this anyway HAHA ~! its like a diary hmmm with alot of fantasies in reality ... aight im out
nights people
currently = facing this world alone
music currently listening to = thunder by boys like girl
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
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