ever felt that emptiness when someone just isnt there? ever felt that you need your questions to be answered so badly that you would wait forever? ever felt so empty handed when something that is bound to be yours just slip right out of your hand? ever felt so mindless when you just dont know what is happening ... ever felt so miserably lost when you aint told of a reason you were left behind?
in mere seconds, people so close and dearly to you can just walk out of your life without you having a trace to find him/her back ... its amazing isnt it ... one second, one split second could change the whole game play of your life ...
a few days back ... it was raining so heavily at night, people would just cuddle in their blanket and sleep soundly till morning, but not for me ... i cant seem to sleep and yes i stayed up all night ... sucks being me LOL ... in the end i went out for a drive, first to greenlane then to the coastal highway and ended at a housing area somewhere near town, a place where is close to the sea, the big wide unending stream of salty water we call the sea ... i was there for quite sometime as i gaze up onto the 16th floor of an apartment ... that is when i counted floor by floor from 1 to 16 ... was practically staring at it for so freaking long that i didnt notice the time ... i parked my car and walked to 7eleven ... ya u must be wondering why would i walk when i can just drive there ... lets just say i love walking under the rain and taking a stroll down the road once in awhile ... just as i left my car ... walk out to the road and on my way to the store, there was this huge thunder that came after a dark blue lightning... am no kidding, it lighted up the night for a second ... it was amazing yet scary to watch ... despite the rain, i still kept walking to the store and as i open the door, the cashier working at the 7 eleven said 'bang, kamu okay tak? mau payung?' lol i just smiled at him and said its okay and bought ice cream ... mango ice cream haha ... you people must think that im mad right, as to eat ice cream when im soaking wet and so freaking cold ... but yea, i just had to taste that ice cream ... it reminds me of someone ^^ ... the expression on the cashier's face was so funny when i bought the ice cream haha yet i cant smile ... sat beside the store and just slowly ate my ice cream ... my whole body was practically shaking but bite by bite reminds me of the day i first time had that ice cream ... it was a normal ice cream with mango jelly in the middle ..
as soon as i finish my ice cream, i went back in the store to buy some chewing gum as i felt like biting something ... i walked around for abit and pass arizona, there was quite alot of people still playing games at this late hour ... at around erm i forget what time, the rain remain the same as i walk back to my car to warm off ... but my plan back fired because as i am soaking wet and it feels so uneasy when you are contempt in a car with another temperature ... so in the end i turn on the air cond haha ... and continue to freeze ... and i dont know is it that 'chunted' that when i turn on the radio, the song thunder by boys like girls was playing on mixfm ... as the rain got smaller, i slowly drove back home ... i reach home and made myself a hot milo and sat down on my couch watching KUNGFU PANDA lol ... and the end i feel asleep right infront of the tv
it all seem so real, the thunder, the lightning, the song, the rain ... maybe i was suppose to be there that night ... and i am glad i did
the funny thing bout that day was, i couldnt recall which day it was ... its either im too blur or i had short term memory lost ... well i will never forget that lightning which i saw ... and that loud roar of thunder ... but all in the end i will not forget that night ... i did alot of silly things but i think its all worth while haha
oh well ... gonna go to bed now >.< having class tomorrow and im sitting here 4am in the morning typing this post ... WOW lol ... no pictures sorry ... but i dont think anyone would read this anyway HAHA ~! its like a diary hmmm with alot of fantasies in reality ... aight im out
nights people
currently = facing this world alone
music currently listening to = thunder by boys like girl
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Sunday, October 26, 2008
short update
ever had someone you love so badly and you thought that everything would go right as things continue being so wonderful? i know i have ... everything was just the way i wanted, everything was jsut so perfect but as it goes on, things might just change in ONE DAY ... 24 hours can change your whole life ... within that very one day, something or someone would kill off your dreams, your hopes or taking away the one you love most ... never mistreat someone just for the benefit of having that satisfaction, once done there wont be any returns
oooo haha stop with the emo business ... so yea ... been busy lately with my college assignments and inter college games ... yes i know my team lsot all four match but hey ... its TEAM B ... didnt expect much from it but kinda disappointed in TEAM A when they lost the finals to inti by just two points ... sigh total sadness i know haha
im gonna stop here ... gonna do my assignments now XD will u[date sooner or later with pics
you have put me through so much pain,
and you made me feel the worst of all,
you have lied to me with words so vain,
but you're the one who kept me standing tall.
you made me cry so many times before,
numerous times i've been forced down,
the gestures you've made me sore,
and you're the reason why i stand my ground.
you push me to limits i cannot take,
but i love you so much and you know it,
you said you love me too but then i break,
and people keep telling me that i need to quit.
i know that in the end we'll all be okay,
but for now i need to know what's true,
i'll be the guy that's remembered as a stray,
you've broken me so many times and i'd still die for you.
oooo haha stop with the emo business ... so yea ... been busy lately with my college assignments and inter college games ... yes i know my team lsot all four match but hey ... its TEAM B ... didnt expect much from it but kinda disappointed in TEAM A when they lost the finals to inti by just two points ... sigh total sadness i know haha
im gonna stop here ... gonna do my assignments now XD will u[date sooner or later with pics
you have put me through so much pain,
and you made me feel the worst of all,
you have lied to me with words so vain,
but you're the one who kept me standing tall.
you made me cry so many times before,
numerous times i've been forced down,
the gestures you've made me sore,
and you're the reason why i stand my ground.
you push me to limits i cannot take,
but i love you so much and you know it,
you said you love me too but then i break,
and people keep telling me that i need to quit.
i know that in the end we'll all be okay,
but for now i need to know what's true,
i'll be the guy that's remembered as a stray,
you've broken me so many times and i'd still die for you.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Solemn
have you ever felt so down and moodless out of a sudden? feeling so darn upset but never knew why you felt that way? ever felt so down to earth feeling that something is missing? maybe something or isit someone? do you feel so excluded at some point of life, not just in our love life but friends as well? do you feel so rejected when someone just doesnt accept of who you really are? have you ever felt so foolish that you wish you would just die and hopefully no memories would be brought with you? ever felt so lonely when there is just no one that would sit down and really hear you out?
sometimes i tend to wonder ... if all of us has our own purpose in life ... whats mine??? isnt life itself deceiving enough ... whats the point having a purpose when nothing in the world turns out to be right? feeling so alone at times ... its just so not the way to live a life given by GOD to us ... everything just clash and burns
i never like being lonely, being left without a clue in just seconds... merely the choice of life which i would choose but life as it is, are just full with mystery and having us to solve this mystery like puzzles are just too much for me to comprehend.
just the other day when i was checking my email, there was this chain email send to me saying ... Define the meaning of love and what love means to you and send it to 10 people. Love is where two person share one emotion that bonds them together as one. Maybe i forgotten how to love someone but then i start to think ... i have always loved everyone ... it doesnt have to be just two person and better yet i start thinking again ... memories will stay memories, no matter how hard you tend to forget it, it will always remain there as a part of our life. But when you tend to love someone so much that you would just do anything for him/her ... LOVE is just a four letter word used by many, but alot of them never knew what love is. Many has used the word LOVE in vain never realizing the word could carry such an impact or could be said such a strong feeling to the other person ...
LOL ~! what am i saying ... i will go back to my assignments now ^^ anyone that feels like hanging out ... just give me a call
Andrew OUT
sometimes i tend to wonder ... if all of us has our own purpose in life ... whats mine??? isnt life itself deceiving enough ... whats the point having a purpose when nothing in the world turns out to be right? feeling so alone at times ... its just so not the way to live a life given by GOD to us ... everything just clash and burns
i never like being lonely, being left without a clue in just seconds... merely the choice of life which i would choose but life as it is, are just full with mystery and having us to solve this mystery like puzzles are just too much for me to comprehend.
just the other day when i was checking my email, there was this chain email send to me saying ... Define the meaning of love and what love means to you and send it to 10 people. Love is where two person share one emotion that bonds them together as one. Maybe i forgotten how to love someone but then i start to think ... i have always loved everyone ... it doesnt have to be just two person and better yet i start thinking again ... memories will stay memories, no matter how hard you tend to forget it, it will always remain there as a part of our life. But when you tend to love someone so much that you would just do anything for him/her ... LOVE is just a four letter word used by many, but alot of them never knew what love is. Many has used the word LOVE in vain never realizing the word could carry such an impact or could be said such a strong feeling to the other person ...
LOL ~! what am i saying ... i will go back to my assignments now ^^ anyone that feels like hanging out ... just give me a call
Andrew OUT
Thursday, October 16, 2008
oooo XD
oooo got this from Jiun Mei's blog ... seems interesting
Put your music player on shuffle.
For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!
If someone says ‘Is this okay?’ You say:
what's left of me by nick lachey
yea i guess so ...
Cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin
to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
what's left of me.
What would best describe your personality?
this is a call by thousand foot krutch
LOL not bad ... emo as it can be XD
What do you like in a guy/girl?
She Fu*king hates me by Puddle of Mudd
OKAY WHAT THE F ~!!! hahaha
so the person which i like turns out to hate me? DAMN no wonder
How do you feel today?
my immortal by evanescence
so true ... i feel so broken and down today
What is your life’s purpose?
Bartender by T-pain
wah ~! my life's purpose to get a chick by being a bartender? HAHAHA... i should start finding a spot at the clubs lol
What do your friends think of you?
Again by faber drive
underneath my skin is it just anger, just frustration?
underneath my skin is it decisions or these feelings?
it always hurt my mind (it always hurt my mind)
it always killed my pride inside.
it always wastes my time
again, again..
again i bleed, again i shake.
again i fall, again i break.
wasted, hated.
again, again..
so my friends think that im a sad sad boy huh ... well true enough lol
What do you think of your parents?
over you by chris daughtry
im over my parents?? HAHAHHA `~!!! i wont still be here without my parents wei
What do you think about very often?
dark blue by jack mannequin
welll not much comment XD
Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..
Just dark blue
What is 2+2?
All you wanted by michelle branch ...
so 2+2 is what i always wanted??? true enough ... 2 person 2 kids???
What do you think of the person you like?
At the cross by hillsong united
yea ... the person i like has to adore GOD ^^
What is your life story?
My Heart by irwansyah & acha
OMG OMG haha damn true~!! who doesnt have this song... ask me to send you ... its so true okay OMG
Di sini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu
Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Di sini surga kita
Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin, tak akan pernah
Sayangku akan hilang...
If we love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
I wouldn't risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart...my heart...
my life is just about conquering the obstacles to be with the one i love ... but it never seems to succeed huh? XD
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hero by Nickelback
wtf??? i wanna be a hero??? haha SUPER ANDREW TO THE RESCUE
What do you think when you see the person you like?
Angel by Shaggy
ooooo of course this is true right? who doesnt see their lovers as their angels?
girl you're my angel ... you;re my darling angel
What do your parents think of you?
Forever by Hillsong United
worshipping God hmmm ... well enough
What will you dance to at your wedding?
menjaga hati by yovie & nuno (lol Cheryl sent me this song)
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini
menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi aku takkan pergi
kau menjauh aku takkan jauh
sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu
hmmm i dunno whether i would dance to this song ...
What will they play at your funeral?
ting mama de hua by jay chou
HAHAHAHHA are you telling me that im dead cause i didnt listen to my mum ~! OMG i must start listening to my mum
What is your hobby/interest?
tongue tied by faber drive
oooo so screwing up on things that i say is my hobby? LOL fair enough
What is your biggest secret?
bu de bu ai by pan wei bo
errrr .... no comment
What do you think of your closest friends?
Here i am Lord by hillsong united
hmmmmm ... yeaps my closest friends adores god XD
What should you post this as?
Tong Hua by Guang Liang
THIS POST IS JUST A FAIRY TALE ~!!! wtf ~! i waste my time doing this hahaha
JIUN MEI U WASTE MY TIME NIA ISH LOL
Put your music player on shuffle.
For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!
If someone says ‘Is this okay?’ You say:
what's left of me by nick lachey
yea i guess so ...
Cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin
to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
what's left of me.
What would best describe your personality?
this is a call by thousand foot krutch
LOL not bad ... emo as it can be XD
What do you like in a guy/girl?
She Fu*king hates me by Puddle of Mudd
OKAY WHAT THE F ~!!! hahaha
so the person which i like turns out to hate me? DAMN no wonder
How do you feel today?
my immortal by evanescence
so true ... i feel so broken and down today
What is your life’s purpose?
Bartender by T-pain
wah ~! my life's purpose to get a chick by being a bartender? HAHAHA... i should start finding a spot at the clubs lol
What do your friends think of you?
Again by faber drive
underneath my skin is it just anger, just frustration?
underneath my skin is it decisions or these feelings?
it always hurt my mind (it always hurt my mind)
it always killed my pride inside.
it always wastes my time
again, again..
again i bleed, again i shake.
again i fall, again i break.
wasted, hated.
again, again..
so my friends think that im a sad sad boy huh ... well true enough lol
What do you think of your parents?
over you by chris daughtry
im over my parents?? HAHAHHA `~!!! i wont still be here without my parents wei
What do you think about very often?
dark blue by jack mannequin
welll not much comment XD
Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..
Just dark blue
What is 2+2?
All you wanted by michelle branch ...
so 2+2 is what i always wanted??? true enough ... 2 person 2 kids???
What do you think of the person you like?
At the cross by hillsong united
yea ... the person i like has to adore GOD ^^
What is your life story?
My Heart by irwansyah & acha
OMG OMG haha damn true~!! who doesnt have this song... ask me to send you ... its so true okay OMG
Di sini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu
Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Di sini surga kita
Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin, tak akan pernah
Sayangku akan hilang...
If we love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
I wouldn't risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart...my heart...
my life is just about conquering the obstacles to be with the one i love ... but it never seems to succeed huh? XD
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hero by Nickelback
wtf??? i wanna be a hero??? haha SUPER ANDREW TO THE RESCUE
What do you think when you see the person you like?
Angel by Shaggy
ooooo of course this is true right? who doesnt see their lovers as their angels?
girl you're my angel ... you;re my darling angel
What do your parents think of you?
Forever by Hillsong United
worshipping God hmmm ... well enough
What will you dance to at your wedding?
menjaga hati by yovie & nuno (lol Cheryl sent me this song)
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini
menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi aku takkan pergi
kau menjauh aku takkan jauh
sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu
hmmm i dunno whether i would dance to this song ...
What will they play at your funeral?
ting mama de hua by jay chou
HAHAHAHHA are you telling me that im dead cause i didnt listen to my mum ~! OMG i must start listening to my mum
What is your hobby/interest?
tongue tied by faber drive
oooo so screwing up on things that i say is my hobby? LOL fair enough
What is your biggest secret?
bu de bu ai by pan wei bo
errrr .... no comment
What do you think of your closest friends?
Here i am Lord by hillsong united
hmmmmm ... yeaps my closest friends adores god XD
What should you post this as?
Tong Hua by Guang Liang
THIS POST IS JUST A FAIRY TALE ~!!! wtf ~! i waste my time doing this hahaha
JIUN MEI U WASTE MY TIME NIA ISH LOL
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Tag replies
jiun mei : how can i forget u har? the most blur donkey i every met JOKIN XD
joyce : hello joyce XD
ju : will update soon enough le ... busy now with assignments and basketball haha XD
yan: will update pretty soon la dont you worry alright HAHA SOON ENOUGH
tiffany : nah not really a fan of USA .. but i dislike other team so YEA XD
eulene: yes yes ... just updated my tag board but for blog updates... LATER NOT NOW
tim: who u calling fat har ... take away the A and put I ... become FIT
jkwan : u aint god no mroe man ... i have SEEN YOU PLAY haha
charis : hello mortal XD
sara: how can i forget my wonderful sis XD
maril: will link u pretty soon ... too lazy to do anything now
adelene: hello MOM XD
well you guys must be wondering what took me so long to reply everyone of you and why i aint updating my blog ... will blog bout it pretty soon ... am too lazy to do anything haha ~! ... see you guys pretty soon ... GOD BLESS
ANDREW OUT
joyce : hello joyce XD
ju : will update soon enough le ... busy now with assignments and basketball haha XD
yan: will update pretty soon la dont you worry alright HAHA SOON ENOUGH
tiffany : nah not really a fan of USA .. but i dislike other team so YEA XD
eulene: yes yes ... just updated my tag board but for blog updates... LATER NOT NOW
tim: who u calling fat har ... take away the A and put I ... become FIT
jkwan : u aint god no mroe man ... i have SEEN YOU PLAY haha
charis : hello mortal XD
sara: how can i forget my wonderful sis XD
maril: will link u pretty soon ... too lazy to do anything now
adelene: hello MOM XD
well you guys must be wondering what took me so long to reply everyone of you and why i aint updating my blog ... will blog bout it pretty soon ... am too lazy to do anything haha ~! ... see you guys pretty soon ... GOD BLESS
ANDREW OUT
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