Thursday, November 20, 2008

hmmmm ...

so yet i'm here again ... its just me and my blog... no one else as always
its so demandingly harsh being lonely ... how bout when someone tells you that you cant talk to a person that you have feelings for? sadening and somehow harshful isnt it ... how could someone be so selfish by asking someone not to communicate with the one they do have feelings for? isnt it like destroying a love that never even started?
how would someone view a couple as not perfect when there isnt any start to their story?? ... not being able to talk nor keep in touch with the ones you like/love is never easy ... it sucks seriously ... the way i see it, its just unfair

well thats life i suppose ... its never easy to have the ones you do have feelings for ... but once everything is overcome ... smooth sailing all the way

whats life without obstacles ... yes it might be easy, it might be what we wanted , but its never right ... oh well

imagine if our life were like the matrix?? imagine if we were all programs living in a program world in total controlled by machines ... i would say its an improvement HAHA...

breach upon the ways
of total chaos in the world
having nothing to sublime in our days
nothing but just a blur

not being able to see you
just turns everything against the world
sitting alone in dreadful blue
all just because of a girl ...

basketball basketball basketball ... whose up for a game of basketball, just message me alright ... could use some company on the court rather than just me playing by myself haha ... i know i know ... have always been a loner on the court ... its just me so bare with it ...

finals is coming ... assignments are over ... youth camp is a month away ... but i not sure whether im going or not ... yet i dont feel youthful no more ... yet acceptance might be a denial as well ... lol am thinking too much ... nights bloggy

Sunday, November 2, 2008

im listening to thunder ...

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

maybe?? just maybe there is some way out of all this ... a way that i could be myself again ... no wait i dont think so ... getting wrapped up in vines under your magic spell just kept me in the same spot and it seems like it could go on forever ... i have been alone for awhile so when are you gonna stop? when are you gonna tell me ... maybe things just wouldnt seem to be the same ... it never did anyways right? haha

blissful as it may seem ... nothing feels right knowing that you arent here ... no im not overly obsess ... it just doesnt fele the same ... it feels like a missing piece to a wonderful puzzle ... a puzzle could always be done if every piece of it is there ... but what happens if one of the pieces gone missing ... it would never be a great puzzle ....

lol yes yes i know i know i have been so 'emo' lately ... well sorry to the readers ... not my fault alright , im just writing what i felt like writing and yea i would continue to do so , so reconsider to ever view my blog ...

a year can go by so freaking fast ... comeon ... the spm takers are in their mids of the most important exam of their lifes ... how fast can it possibly be? it was like just yesterday when u are still running around playing tag with your friends ... it never gets old hmmm. a year can go by so fast, how would a day be when its only 24 hours ... so many things can happen in just one day that you cant even imagine ... no one could guarantee whether they could wake up alive the very next morning ... why? its because time could just take it away from you ... you might even sleep through and never wake up ... so be glad and thank god you could open your eyes every morning when you wake up cause you wouldnt know what might happen to you in just a blink of an eye ... LOL it sounded so scary yet true right ... hmmm

im gonna go to bed ... nights bloggy ...

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

when will that thunder ever come back ....