it somehow goes back to the very beginning of the end

its not an interesting post ... dun read ...

very very long didnt update d but what the heck, no one visits anyways HAHA ~!
i'm only doing this for my enjoyment since i got nothing to do and i just seem very out of the mood tonight ... sad i know oh well emo sticks to emo moments LOL ... right ....

so many things have happen lately ... somehow i just couldnt keep up with the time as it goes on so fast and you get older each second ... everytime u go to class, u wait for the time to pass quickly so that you would get your break or go home ... but notice that those time that you were rushing to be faster, is actually the time which u are actually alive ...

Every single moment passes. every moment cherished, every love treasured but all will end up in one place ... the broken dump ... i sound so down but yet im not, its just me lalala ~!
Breaking into the point of exhaustion where EVERYONE THAT WERE CLOSE TO YOU SEEMS SO FAR AWAY out of the sudden ... thats how life works? you have friends/you hang with friends/friends meets new people and became friends/friends being lovely friends for being there/ended up your friend leaving without caring ... wooopidooo ... its not what it seems but its true? ... at a point when u are needed every attention will always be focused on you ... but when everything is settled, you dont see yourself anywhere near them ... its life? They call when they are in need, but when you call ... they are never there ... no matter how close you are to somebody, they'll not stay forever ... its just for a moment period of time ... what happen to those who always calls you to ask you how are you? what happen to those people who ask you to go out ... vanished??? i have yet to see alot of things ... and i dont think im cut out to see it ...

friends ... are they really ur friends? best friends ... do they know you need them? close friends ... where are they when they are needed most? leechers ... those who just sees you as an item ...

anyways ...

whoever that is reading this, i apologise lol ... not intended for the readers to read ... its just me typing what i feel to release my exhaustion ...

friends withold the unity
friends discovered and trust
friends needs you when they are needed
friends never seem bail on you at such
friends builds a tower in your heart
friends ... end up hurting you and leave