hmmmm ...

so yet i'm here again ... its just me and my blog... no one else as always
its so demandingly harsh being lonely ... how bout when someone tells you that you cant talk to a person that you have feelings for? sadening and somehow harshful isnt it ... how could someone be so selfish by asking someone not to communicate with the one they do have feelings for? isnt it like destroying a love that never even started?
how would someone view a couple as not perfect when there isnt any start to their story?? ... not being able to talk nor keep in touch with the ones you like/love is never easy ... it sucks seriously ... the way i see it, its just unfair

well thats life i suppose ... its never easy to have the ones you do have feelings for ... but once everything is overcome ... smooth sailing all the way

whats life without obstacles ... yes it might be easy, it might be what we wanted , but its never right ... oh well

imagine if our life were like the matrix?? imagine if we were all programs living in a program world in total controlled by machines ... i would say its an improvement HAHA...

breach upon the ways
of total chaos in the world
having nothing to sublime in our days
nothing but just a blur

not being able to see you
just turns everything against the world
sitting alone in dreadful blue
all just because of a girl ...

basketball basketball basketball ... whose up for a game of basketball, just message me alright ... could use some company on the court rather than just me playing by myself haha ... i know i know ... have always been a loner on the court ... its just me so bare with it ...

finals is coming ... assignments are over ... youth camp is a month away ... but i not sure whether im going or not ... yet i dont feel youthful no more ... yet acceptance might be a denial as well ... lol am thinking too much ... nights bloggy