christmas party 08

i know i am like so many weeks late with my post but haha who cares ... my blog anyways woot ~! so lets see ... this year i receive presents from friends BUT NONE from family ... what to do , economy going down, people living at the line where they are suffering and all ... so be glad that we still could have a party and exchange of gifts during christmas ... many people are already happy to receive just one PEANUT for a present ... im serious LOL

so the party was at deborah's house, wasnt hard to find ... jsut have to look for a house with many ANNOYING/loud kids ...LOL firebrands are loud im serious , thats why we have the irresisable influence towards other people right? lol one thing bout the party is that, htere aint enough food, haha khai hern and khai shin had like 2 piece of roti canai? i had two piece of pizza and thats it ... i had lots of fun taking candid pictures of people,

FOR EXAMPLE





and lots more ... lazy to wait for the stupid loader to load all the pics ... more pics on my facebook ...

oh and the food jam SYSTEM >.<
pics ....




so jam just to get food right? and it proves that firebrands has smart people when it comes to food ... you know why?? see the next picture

HAHA we took the whole container of fries to ourself ... not bad right? well it may seem selfish but haha ... well i didint had any of it cause i was too busy taking pics ... diidnt wanna get my camera oily ... XD

later after the banquet ... all came together and sing carols wooo XD pics pics





oh dang i forget bout the string game >.< stupid judson and gerald KNS one lol ... that game is somehow dumb but very very interesting ... will get it one day ... maybe tonight during pastor's barbeque ~!!! judson u wait ... i'll conquer the game LOL


and it all ended in messy present receiving session ~! PICS




and after the present thingy ~! sesi syok sendiri WOOT lol









more pics in my facebook ... lazy to upload d >.<
all in all ... fantastic christmas


next post ... my new painted room hee ...

currently : sick like a mad cow
listening to : love remains the same by gavin rossdale
craving for : pasta
looking forward to : new semester in college

half the time the world is ending
the truth is i am done pretending

freed???

youth camp was AWESOME~!!!
on the first day ... i bet lots of people thinks that the place suck and all ... well i do agree on that but i enjoy it thoroughly ... WHY??? cause maybe i just love long walks ... and im serious, the walk from the dorm to the hall was just SWEATY haha ... i would still say the camp is great and all, we have like three speakers this year ... tony foster, chris and ENTAU JOEL ~! kanasai im serious ... he damn entau okay? and i aint gay ... i just like to give comment hahha ~! and chris has green EYES ~! damn nice okay ... and i jsut notice that on the last day of camp hah

last year i expected god to do wonders in my life ... but this year's camp ... i went to camp expecting nothing ... i wanted a surprise from god ... and yes he did surprise me ... this camp made me think bout missions , discipleship ... all of this were running through my mind ... though we are free to do whatever we want but we need to set our priorities right as well ... so im glad i went to camp despite i was having difficulties going there as an older person ... i admit that i was kinda worried that i would be left out and so but hey i had fun ... right PEOPLE?? i had new PARTNERS and met new cough*evil*cough people ~!

the food at hosba valley was superb ~! i love the fried rice haha ... sorry to those who diidnt get any rice ... i guess we took too much ... its WE okay ... not only me
so whoever that diidnt go to camp this year ... its okay ... NEXT YEAR will be another year ... so look forward to it ... cause i know i am ... YES YES i know im old haha but i love being a camper ... get to mess with people wahahahaha or i would put as how julian always say me ... andrew stop flirting LOL ... i aint flirting k, i am enjoying life ... LOL

no pictures yet though ... will update with pictures soon ... and will update bout my NEW painted room tomorrow or maybe tonight if im not lazy ...

currently = coughing real bad
listening to = save you by simple plan
thinking of = how ot celebrate new year's eve
mood = sleepy

cause shes BITTER SWEET

will update soon ... AND HELLO to AYC TEAM MATES lol

hmmmm ...

so yet i'm here again ... its just me and my blog... no one else as always
its so demandingly harsh being lonely ... how bout when someone tells you that you cant talk to a person that you have feelings for? sadening and somehow harshful isnt it ... how could someone be so selfish by asking someone not to communicate with the one they do have feelings for? isnt it like destroying a love that never even started?
how would someone view a couple as not perfect when there isnt any start to their story?? ... not being able to talk nor keep in touch with the ones you like/love is never easy ... it sucks seriously ... the way i see it, its just unfair

well thats life i suppose ... its never easy to have the ones you do have feelings for ... but once everything is overcome ... smooth sailing all the way

whats life without obstacles ... yes it might be easy, it might be what we wanted , but its never right ... oh well

imagine if our life were like the matrix?? imagine if we were all programs living in a program world in total controlled by machines ... i would say its an improvement HAHA...

breach upon the ways
of total chaos in the world
having nothing to sublime in our days
nothing but just a blur

not being able to see you
just turns everything against the world
sitting alone in dreadful blue
all just because of a girl ...

basketball basketball basketball ... whose up for a game of basketball, just message me alright ... could use some company on the court rather than just me playing by myself haha ... i know i know ... have always been a loner on the court ... its just me so bare with it ...

finals is coming ... assignments are over ... youth camp is a month away ... but i not sure whether im going or not ... yet i dont feel youthful no more ... yet acceptance might be a denial as well ... lol am thinking too much ... nights bloggy

im listening to thunder ...

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

maybe?? just maybe there is some way out of all this ... a way that i could be myself again ... no wait i dont think so ... getting wrapped up in vines under your magic spell just kept me in the same spot and it seems like it could go on forever ... i have been alone for awhile so when are you gonna stop? when are you gonna tell me ... maybe things just wouldnt seem to be the same ... it never did anyways right? haha

blissful as it may seem ... nothing feels right knowing that you arent here ... no im not overly obsess ... it just doesnt fele the same ... it feels like a missing piece to a wonderful puzzle ... a puzzle could always be done if every piece of it is there ... but what happens if one of the pieces gone missing ... it would never be a great puzzle ....

lol yes yes i know i know i have been so 'emo' lately ... well sorry to the readers ... not my fault alright , im just writing what i felt like writing and yea i would continue to do so , so reconsider to ever view my blog ...

a year can go by so freaking fast ... comeon ... the spm takers are in their mids of the most important exam of their lifes ... how fast can it possibly be? it was like just yesterday when u are still running around playing tag with your friends ... it never gets old hmmm. a year can go by so fast, how would a day be when its only 24 hours ... so many things can happen in just one day that you cant even imagine ... no one could guarantee whether they could wake up alive the very next morning ... why? its because time could just take it away from you ... you might even sleep through and never wake up ... so be glad and thank god you could open your eyes every morning when you wake up cause you wouldnt know what might happen to you in just a blink of an eye ... LOL it sounded so scary yet true right ... hmmm

im gonna go to bed ... nights bloggy ...

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

when will that thunder ever come back ....

bring out the rain and bring out the thunder

ever felt that emptiness when someone just isnt there? ever felt that you need your questions to be answered so badly that you would wait forever? ever felt so empty handed when something that is bound to be yours just slip right out of your hand? ever felt so mindless when you just dont know what is happening ... ever felt so miserably lost when you aint told of a reason you were left behind?

in mere seconds, people so close and dearly to you can just walk out of your life without you having a trace to find him/her back ... its amazing isnt it ... one second, one split second could change the whole game play of your life ...

a few days back ... it was raining so heavily at night, people would just cuddle in their blanket and sleep soundly till morning, but not for me ... i cant seem to sleep and yes i stayed up all night ... sucks being me LOL ... in the end i went out for a drive, first to greenlane then to the coastal highway and ended at a housing area somewhere near town, a place where is close to the sea, the big wide unending stream of salty water we call the sea ... i was there for quite sometime as i gaze up onto the 16th floor of an apartment ... that is when i counted floor by floor from 1 to 16 ... was practically staring at it for so freaking long that i didnt notice the time ... i parked my car and walked to 7eleven ... ya u must be wondering why would i walk when i can just drive there ... lets just say i love walking under the rain and taking a stroll down the road once in awhile ... just as i left my car ... walk out to the road and on my way to the store, there was this huge thunder that came after a dark blue lightning... am no kidding, it lighted up the night for a second ... it was amazing yet scary to watch ... despite the rain, i still kept walking to the store and as i open the door, the cashier working at the 7 eleven said 'bang, kamu okay tak? mau payung?' lol i just smiled at him and said its okay and bought ice cream ... mango ice cream haha ... you people must think that im mad right, as to eat ice cream when im soaking wet and so freaking cold ... but yea, i just had to taste that ice cream ... it reminds me of someone ^^ ... the expression on the cashier's face was so funny when i bought the ice cream haha yet i cant smile ... sat beside the store and just slowly ate my ice cream ... my whole body was practically shaking but bite by bite reminds me of the day i first time had that ice cream ... it was a normal ice cream with mango jelly in the middle ..

as soon as i finish my ice cream, i went back in the store to buy some chewing gum as i felt like biting something ... i walked around for abit and pass arizona, there was quite alot of people still playing games at this late hour ... at around erm i forget what time, the rain remain the same as i walk back to my car to warm off ... but my plan back fired because as i am soaking wet and it feels so uneasy when you are contempt in a car with another temperature ... so in the end i turn on the air cond haha ... and continue to freeze ... and i dont know is it that 'chunted' that when i turn on the radio, the song thunder by boys like girls was playing on mixfm ... as the rain got smaller, i slowly drove back home ... i reach home and made myself a hot milo and sat down on my couch watching KUNGFU PANDA lol ... and the end i feel asleep right infront of the tv

it all seem so real, the thunder, the lightning, the song, the rain ... maybe i was suppose to be there that night ... and i am glad i did

the funny thing bout that day was, i couldnt recall which day it was ... its either im too blur or i had short term memory lost ... well i will never forget that lightning which i saw ... and that loud roar of thunder ... but all in the end i will not forget that night ... i did alot of silly things but i think its all worth while haha

oh well ... gonna go to bed now >.< having class tomorrow and im sitting here 4am in the morning typing this post ... WOW lol ... no pictures sorry ... but i dont think anyone would read this anyway HAHA ~! its like a diary hmmm with alot of fantasies in reality ... aight im out

nights people

currently = facing this world alone
music currently listening to = thunder by boys like girl

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

short update

ever had someone you love so badly and you thought that everything would go right as things continue being so wonderful? i know i have ... everything was just the way i wanted, everything was jsut so perfect but as it goes on, things might just change in ONE DAY ... 24 hours can change your whole life ... within that very one day, something or someone would kill off your dreams, your hopes or taking away the one you love most ... never mistreat someone just for the benefit of having that satisfaction, once done there wont be any returns

oooo haha stop with the emo business ... so yea ... been busy lately with my college assignments and inter college games ... yes i know my team lsot all four match but hey ... its TEAM B ... didnt expect much from it but kinda disappointed in TEAM A when they lost the finals to inti by just two points ... sigh total sadness i know haha

im gonna stop here ... gonna do my assignments now XD will u[date sooner or later with pics

you have put me through so much pain,
and you made me feel the worst of all,
you have lied to me with words so vain,
but you're the one who kept me standing tall.

you made me cry so many times before,
numerous times i've been forced down,
the gestures you've made me sore,
and you're the reason why i stand my ground.

you push me to limits i cannot take,
but i love you so much and you know it,
you said you love me too but then i break,
and people keep telling me that i need to quit.

i know that in the end we'll all be okay,
but for now i need to know what's true,
i'll be the guy that's remembered as a stray,
you've broken me so many times and i'd still die for you.

Solemn

have you ever felt so down and moodless out of a sudden? feeling so darn upset but never knew why you felt that way? ever felt so down to earth feeling that something is missing? maybe something or isit someone? do you feel so excluded at some point of life, not just in our love life but friends as well? do you feel so rejected when someone just doesnt accept of who you really are? have you ever felt so foolish that you wish you would just die and hopefully no memories would be brought with you? ever felt so lonely when there is just no one that would sit down and really hear you out?

sometimes i tend to wonder ... if all of us has our own purpose in life ... whats mine??? isnt life itself deceiving enough ... whats the point having a purpose when nothing in the world turns out to be right? feeling so alone at times ... its just so not the way to live a life given by GOD to us ... everything just clash and burns

i never like being lonely, being left without a clue in just seconds... merely the choice of life which i would choose but life as it is, are just full with mystery and having us to solve this mystery like puzzles are just too much for me to comprehend.

just the other day when i was checking my email, there was this chain email send to me saying ... Define the meaning of love and what love means to you and send it to 10 people. Love is where two person share one emotion that bonds them together as one. Maybe i forgotten how to love someone but then i start to think ... i have always loved everyone ... it doesnt have to be just two person and better yet i start thinking again ... memories will stay memories, no matter how hard you tend to forget it, it will always remain there as a part of our life. But when you tend to love someone so much that you would just do anything for him/her ... LOVE is just a four letter word used by many, but alot of them never knew what love is. Many has used the word LOVE in vain never realizing the word could carry such an impact or could be said such a strong feeling to the other person ...

LOL ~! what am i saying ... i will go back to my assignments now ^^ anyone that feels like hanging out ... just give me a call

Andrew OUT

oooo XD

oooo got this from Jiun Mei's blog ... seems interesting

Put your music player on shuffle.
For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!

If someone says ‘Is this okay?’ You say:
what's left of me by nick lachey

yea i guess so ...
Cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin
to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
what's left of me.

What would best describe your personality?
this is a call by thousand foot krutch

LOL not bad ... emo as it can be XD

What do you like in a guy/girl?
She Fu*king hates me by Puddle of Mudd

OKAY WHAT THE F ~!!! hahaha
so the person which i like turns out to hate me? DAMN no wonder

How do you feel today?
my immortal by evanescence

so true ... i feel so broken and down today

What is your life’s purpose?
Bartender by T-pain

wah ~! my life's purpose to get a chick by being a bartender? HAHAHA... i should start finding a spot at the clubs lol

What do your friends think of you?
Again by faber drive

underneath my skin is it just anger, just frustration?
underneath my skin is it decisions or these feelings?
it always hurt my mind (it always hurt my mind)
it always killed my pride inside.
it always wastes my time
again, again..

again i bleed, again i shake.
again i fall, again i break.
wasted, hated.
again, again..

so my friends think that im a sad sad boy huh ... well true enough lol

What do you think of your parents?
over you by chris daughtry

im over my parents?? HAHAHHA `~!!! i wont still be here without my parents wei

What do you think about very often?
dark blue by jack mannequin

welll not much comment XD

Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..
Just dark blue

What is 2+2?
All you wanted by michelle branch ...

so 2+2 is what i always wanted??? true enough ... 2 person 2 kids???

What do you think of the person you like?
At the cross by hillsong united

yea ... the person i like has to adore GOD ^^

What is your life story?
My Heart by irwansyah & acha

OMG OMG haha damn true~!! who doesnt have this song... ask me to send you ... its so true okay OMG

Di sini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Di sini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin, tak akan pernah
Sayangku akan hilang...

If we love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
I wouldn't risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart...my heart...

my life is just about conquering the obstacles to be with the one i love ... but it never seems to succeed huh? XD

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hero by Nickelback

wtf??? i wanna be a hero??? haha SUPER ANDREW TO THE RESCUE

What do you think when you see the person you like?
Angel by Shaggy

ooooo of course this is true right? who doesnt see their lovers as their angels?
girl you're my angel ... you;re my darling angel

What do your parents think of you?
Forever by Hillsong United

worshipping God hmmm ... well enough

What will you dance to at your wedding?
menjaga hati by yovie & nuno (lol Cheryl sent me this song)

Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini
menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi aku takkan pergi
kau menjauh aku takkan jauh
sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

hmmm i dunno whether i would dance to this song ...

What will they play at your funeral?
ting mama de hua by jay chou

HAHAHAHHA are you telling me that im dead cause i didnt listen to my mum ~! OMG i must start listening to my mum

What is your hobby/interest?
tongue tied by faber drive

oooo so screwing up on things that i say is my hobby? LOL fair enough

What is your biggest secret?
bu de bu ai by pan wei bo

errrr .... no comment

What do you think of your closest friends?
Here i am Lord by hillsong united

hmmmmm ... yeaps my closest friends adores god XD

What should you post this as?
Tong Hua by Guang Liang

THIS POST IS JUST A FAIRY TALE ~!!! wtf ~! i waste my time doing this hahaha

JIUN MEI U WASTE MY TIME NIA ISH LOL

Tag replies

jiun mei : how can i forget u har? the most blur donkey i every met JOKIN XD
joyce : hello joyce XD
ju : will update soon enough le ... busy now with assignments and basketball haha XD
yan: will update pretty soon la dont you worry alright HAHA SOON ENOUGH
tiffany : nah not really a fan of USA .. but i dislike other team so YEA XD
eulene: yes yes ... just updated my tag board but for blog updates... LATER NOT NOW
tim: who u calling fat har ... take away the A and put I ... become FIT
jkwan : u aint god no mroe man ... i have SEEN YOU PLAY haha
charis : hello mortal XD
sara: how can i forget my wonderful sis XD
maril: will link u pretty soon ... too lazy to do anything now
adelene: hello MOM XD

well you guys must be wondering what took me so long to reply everyone of you and why i aint updating my blog ... will blog bout it pretty soon ... am too lazy to do anything haha ~! ... see you guys pretty soon ... GOD BLESS


ANDREW OUT

painful week

yeaps yeaps ~! its been a tough week ... its been basketball almost every single day thansk to MR JULIAN who made me crave for it or maybe its just a passions truck since the olympics is around the corner ~! and yes OLYMPICS IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW wooo ~! get to see basketball everyday ... and you must be thinking why watch on tv when u can go out and ball anytime right? HAHA well


this is the reason why ... it might not seem that its serious and all but if u were to see my arm on that day ... you would freak out ... its fractured yea and just a small hole in the bone ... nothing serious will heal in a couple of days ... unable to full use my strength yet but i will abre with it ... thats the reason why i have


thsi on my arm right now ~! sucks to the max seriously ... cant even drive properly DAMN ~! haha oh well ... dont care im still balling if u all didint know ... an injury just wont stop me from basketball ... :)

well yea ... now my second semester has just started ... have to wake up 7 in the morning again ... sucks being in college ... but at elast i dont have tow ear uniform no more ...and its fun cause my class is directly opposite MGS's second floor which me and my gang go to the window and kacau them at times HAHA ... and yet i saw megan and sharon today through those windows LOL

OH OH ~!!!! anyone who didnt watch USA basketball team against CHINA ... YOU SUCK ~!

KOBE ~!!!


there he goes again


DWAYNE WADE ~!!


lebron james ... yao ming on the floor


the USA TEAM ...

USA beat china 101- 70 ... 31 points LOL ... oh well i expect USA to win this turn ... china gave a good fight from the start ... but at the end ... they just feel through ... lebron is jsut on fire >.<

im sorry, im just human

im human ... i aint god ... and like very human ... human thinks when they have no clue what happen, human thinks when they ask a question and the question were never answered ...

im not that perfect to jsut not think of the circumstances ...

im sorry im jsut human ... thats the five words i could only say

a mirror that is broken once

our heart is like a mirror ... once broken it can never be replaced nor fix ...
maybe that is why people call it ... once broken considered sold??
ever heard of the term revivetalising ... it actually exist in british vocabulary
even as hurtful as it seems ... things would jsut happen without a clue
people always say ... lightning wont struck the same place twice
but how could one struck my heart twice ...
things just really amaze me at times
what are we living for ... what is our purpose in life
i know i know ... we are living for god ... god gave us a purpose
but have you ever seem to wonder what purpose has god have on you
have you ever wonder why is the heart torn into so many pieces as we keep living on this planet ...
i would just love to join GOD in heaven now ... at least i dont have to feel this pain

i waited at the playground ... so many hours there seem to be no reply ... i am just scared something happen ... im scared things would look bad if i open my eyes ... im just scared surprises kicks in ... to be truthful i hate surprises ... i have been receiving to many surprises in one lifetime ... the only thing that would make me happy through a surprise ... is waking up next to you ...

i was born to tell you i love you
i am torn to do what i have to do
to make you mine, stay with me tonight

have you ever love someone so deeply that you never wish to see another ... love is not just for one ... but its for both parties to work hard to achieve their love to the limit ... love has no limit ... its an endless river that keeps running ... but rivers always have boulders to block our path ... that is when two has to come as one to flow through this huge boulder ... there is no love without any obstacles
correct me if im wrong ... everyone is vulnerable ... no one is invincible

when there are doubts ... always ask ... be truthful ... never give up ... never lose a fight without even wielding your sword to fight for what you believe ... love always lead to a broken heart ... but if you learn how to mend each others heart ... there will be nothing stoping ur love to flow through this river

a person that always seem to be strong is usually the weakest of all ... they tend to be strong so no one would worry ... so everyone would think he/she is okay ... so everyone would think he is strong to overcome everything ... let me tell you this ... people who seems to be the strongest are the weakest link ... they jsut dont show it ... its their nature ... dont take things for granted ... love is not just a toy ... love is a bond between two

stay true to your heart
stay true to your love
stay true to your instincts

sylvia ... i will always stay true to you

august 5th

august 3rd 2008 ... i could say that its the day i would regret for the rest of my life ... i thought the only day i would regret in my life would be two years ago ... but i guess history is repeating itself ... i should have just keep my mouth shut ... i should have just go with it ... but i diidnt wanna lie ... i wanna tell her everything ... i wanna tell her what i feel ... i wanna be true to her ... that is why i told her ... everything happen for a reason ... and the reason would be cause i wanna be truthful to you ... i fought against all this obstacles ... i bang my body and crash against the great wall of china ... i fought for you ... and i will keep fighting for the love and justice which i know that it exist ... because i know that you are weak inside ... you tried to fight but you cant seem to fight no more ... bie pick up your sword ... stand your ground ... fight for me ... like how i fought for you ... secure me with your shield ... as i secure you with my body ... you will always have me and i am hoping i would always have you ... secure me with your love ... secure me with the desire to be with me ... fight through all this foes all this obstacles ... and we would be happy together like how i know it should be ... the foes that we are fighting ... is all the lies we had, all those people tearing us apart, those people who just wanna take you away from me ... and most imprtantly ... secure me ... fight the jealousy away from me ... secure me with all you can ... cause i know u can ... you just have to try

ignore all those bad times we had ... ignore all those tears we shared ... i know i have hurt you but do think of the laughter we had , the happy time when we are together ... wont this happy moments just overshadow our worst times?? ... im letting go of our past to start fresh ... would you do the same for me ... stop thinking bout the sad times and stop thinking bout how you gonna hurt me ... think bout how happy you are gonna make me and how much love we share ... i am sure the love we share could overshadow all this darkness ... stop thinking bout the negative side ... think of the positive side when you are the only person that could make me happy

i would rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else ...

i wrote this on 3rd august when it all began

baby come back to me(its not a set of good lyrics but ... im okay with it)

Have you ever turn back to see
The tears you left behind
If only you could hear my heart
Just one more time

Even when I close my eyes
You are the only one I see
Even I have to come to realize
You are the lost I cant replace

Baby come back to me

(Chorus)
Baby Why
That you have to leave me all alone
Since the day that you were gone
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby Why
Couldn’t you see we are meant to be
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby why

Walking on this empty road
Where our love was young and free
Waiting for the rain to stop
So you could come to me
I would give my life away
If our love can be safe
Cause I could still hear the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

(Chorus)

It kills me when you tell me
That you aint the one for me
That you just walk away and leave me
Love would bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Baby Why
That you have to leave me all alone
Since the day that you were gone
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby Why
Couldn’t you see we are meant to be
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby why

august 4th

a story that once once written so many months ago (months har not year)

the first ever day where i lay my eyes on you ... with ur school's uniform u ask me am i andrew chan ... i said i am ... she was selling her school's orchestra concert and ask me if i would wish to buy one ... in the end i help her to sell to other people which i came down to the canteen after my recess ...

few weeks pass by and destiny kicks in again as i see her and for the first time i hang out with her together with 2 other friends ... she was with her own friends but later around 2-3 pm ... i ask her if she would want to join us for a movie ... she said ok ... i still remember i paid for her ... generous as i could be maybe things just dont seem as friends

after that day ... we message each other alot as on the 7th day which i first hang with her ... i ask her to my friends birthday party ... thats when i know i wanna be with her ... i know it might just be a short time ... but it seem like i have known her forever ... on that very day she became mine ... its different from what i felt or what i did ... among both my ex ... she was the first girl which i first on with that could make me feel so comfortable ... maybe my love meter has just struck at that moment

things went so smoothly ... first month ... second month... third month ... fourth month ... and almost to fifth month ... that is when it all crashes down to the center of the earth ... she was my longest relation ... she was the ever girl that could stick with a sweet talker like me ... yes i admit i sweet talk alot but its just my natural self ... i could see she really loved me ... but like i always say, we will never realize how much we love someone until we let that person go ...

i have let her go for almost two years ... and i do come to realize that i could never love another girl as much as i love her ...

year 2008 ... things actually brighten up for me ... she calls me more often ... she hangs with me more often ... yes i am very happy cause the girl i love most in life is coming back to me ... but i guess i did something wrong that screwed the whole thing again ... bie ... come to realize no matter what you say or did to me ... my love for you will be burning as long as i trust in GOD ...

the reason i told you i was insecure was because ... there is so many guys going after you ... some would straight ask for your number even though is the first time he knows you ... some just propose to you straight away ... i think sometimes i have the right to be insecure as there is all this guys making me jealous over them ... i never admit to anyone that i have jealousy issues ... i just keep strong for you ... but i decided to tell you that day cause i dont wanna lie to you ... you said that if your love was strong enough i could always feel ur secure and comfort ... let me tell you this ...i do feel it ... when you are around me ... i do feel your secure when u are in my arms .... i do feel comfort when i clash against you ... but all this guys scares me at times ... i hope you understand .... i would always fight for you ... and will always love you ... let me know that you will do the same?

My game's server is down .... 22/7/08

yea like what the title says ... the game which im playing Cabal Sea online is currently down so i have nothing better to do but just to blog ~!!!

first things first ... im having my semester break wooohoooo .... bad news is i think i flunk my finals OH WELLL~!!! HAHAHAHA

on saturday, did not went to the fish hook event which i wanted cause i have to attend my uncle's wedding and i didnt regret on that ... the wedding was at rasa sayang hotel... i had fun ... REALLY HAD FUN as in having fun in a WEDDING ~!! can you imagine that haha ... that was after the ceremony thing though which is having buffet dinner at my uncle's huge bungallow ... i brought her there and everyone of my relatives met her ... hee ^^ thats the main point on why did i had so much fun ... this is cause she was THERE ~!!! and the best part was ALCOHOL ... WOOHOOO ~!!! i had so much to drink that i forgot how many glasses i took haha ... its cool cause i still could drive home ... not easily drunk ^^

here are the pics during the ceremony

the bride the groom and the two lovely angels


my family


the ladies of the family


the guys of the family


angels


love them


me and my sis


it was my sisters idea LOL XD


and this idea was mine haha


FOOD


ahha need i say more??


the dudes again

so yea there was LOTS MORE PICS taken ... but im lazy to put them all ... had like 30... haha

and yea so on ... now to the buffet dinner at the huge house ... we had so much food and yet none was finish ... my uncle hired a live band ... somesort like a jazz band ... all of us were having fun dancing and stuuff ... i arrive late as i went to fetch HER at her house to batu feringghi hehe ... we were having fun ... we refuse to dance as you know la shy right ... BUT too bad for HER ... my dad pulled her up and started dancing with her hahaha ... my dad was the video man for the whole day ... welll less talk more pics ...

(you guys will never feel what i feel that night ... when she came over and held me close ... i know i love her and i always will ... no one knows how happy i was that night ... not even her ... sylvia ILY and i wanted to ask you to be mine that night ... maybe i was jsut afraid)


my uncle dancing to a song by michael jackson HAHA


my grandma and my mum


haha my dad pulled her to the dance floor


my dad rocks LOL


there he and she goes again LOL


eh hem ...


my dad and me singing better man XD


dont know why like that ... but i like it


the wine ^^


the vodka


the band


this was after i send HER back and came back to drink more XD


where everyone settles down XD


PIZZA XD

yea so that was what practically happen during my saturday ... an unforgetable day as i know it will not happen again unless one of my cousins decides to marry HEE ~!!! till here then ... BUBYE


JJ SAYS HI