Living a Life of Endless Bliss

Hope's Silent Cry - Abortion

2011-05-14T11:01:00.001-07:00

A short film I've made ... Enjoy guys =)

i'm falling apart ...

2010-05-10T21:32:00.000-07:00

At times when you are confuse over the sucky things that is happening to you right now, its best to just move away from everything .... yea definitely ^^

im blogging cause i am bored and i didnt wanna detach myself from my bed ...
am suppose to be watching badminton now CAUSE I am nice enough to wake up to make sure Nicole Tan wakes up to watch her badminton LOL ... Yes i blame YOU

this college semester is actually quite relaxing ... only two subjects and all i am learning is photoshop and indesign ... BUT am stressing over the fact that i am going to intern soon AND that i have to decide where I want to take my degree ... normally i am very excited as i am growing up but then I think that time is moving at the speed of light ... its moving so fast that I am afraid of the future ... sometimes i just wish i am back at kindergarten where i just sit on the swings or look at leaves and learn about flora and fauna ~! LOL

If i leave Penang, means i have to leave fireBRANDS, if i stay in Penang, i will be studying a course that i dont like ... sigh ... I shall just surrender everything to GOD ... if HE wants me to be in Penang, then i will, but if he wants me to go far and start something new for HIM, then i will as well ... but i will definitely miss PENANG ... DECISIONS DECISIONS DECISIONS >.< DAMN

Right now i just want to surrender everything to GOD ...

theme song of my current life right now is definitely Broken by LifeHouse
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

yes, i am holdin on ...

2010

2010-03-29T05:25:00.001-07:00

Hello~! haha, i abandoned my blog for far too long and guess what, i forgot how to configure my own template, so to make things easier for me, i'll just use a default template ... XD

So what made me blog again -
1) i have no where else to rant
2) i have no where else to express
3) i have no where else to complain
4) i have no where else to talk nonsense
5) i have no where else to talk to myself

>.< sad isn't it but who cares?

2010 has been so far the worst year but it gets better every day ... hopefully it stays that way hmmmm

and oh~! i am finishing my studies soon - diploma ...
most probably intern in KL
and hopefully i get to go to one of these places for my degree
1) UK
2) Singapore
3) KL
4) Penang

somesort sick of Penang ... i need to see new PEOPLE ~! LOL
but I dont wanna leave my family, sad ~! ARGH
oh well, lets see where Gods wants me to go ... XD UK UK UK hahaha LOL

Wave Challenge is coming ~!!! WOOOOOOO
Captain ball captain ball captain ball ... this year, the focus was suppose to be FIRST, but at the end, i just wanna have fun, yea definitely ~! SORRY PASTOR XP

feel like going supper, but no one to go with sighhhhhh
i shall continue rotting on my bed ...

I SHALL NOT THINK SO MUCH <--- note to self ... BYE XD

it somehow goes back to the very beginning of the end

2009-06-12T11:41:00.001-07:00

its not an interesting post ... dun read ...

very very long didnt update d but what the heck, no one visits anyways HAHA ~!
i'm only doing this for my enjoyment since i got nothing to do and i just seem very out of the mood tonight ... sad i know oh well emo sticks to emo moments LOL ... right ....

so many things have happen lately ... somehow i just couldnt keep up with the time as it goes on so fast and you get older each second ... everytime u go to class, u wait for the time to pass quickly so that you would get your break or go home ... but notice that those time that you were rushing to be faster, is actually the time which u are actually alive ...

Every single moment passes. every moment cherished, every love treasured but all will end up in one place ... the broken dump ... i sound so down but yet im not, its just me lalala ~!
Breaking into the point of exhaustion where EVERYONE THAT WERE CLOSE TO YOU SEEMS SO FAR AWAY out of the sudden ... thats how life works? you have friends/you hang with friends/friends meets new people and became friends/friends being lovely friends for being there/ended up your friend leaving without caring ... wooopidooo ... its not what it seems but its true? ... at a point when u are needed every attention will always be focused on you ... but when everything is settled, you dont see yourself anywhere near them ... its life? They call when they are in need, but when you call ... they are never there ... no matter how close you are to somebody, they'll not stay forever ... its just for a moment period of time ... what happen to those who always calls you to ask you how are you? what happen to those people who ask you to go out ... vanished??? i have yet to see alot of things ... and i dont think im cut out to see it ...

friends ... are they really ur friends? best friends ... do they know you need them? close friends ... where are they when they are needed most? leechers ... those who just sees you as an item ...

anyways ...

whoever that is reading this, i apologise lol ... not intended for the readers to read ... its just me typing what i feel to release my exhaustion ...

friends withold the unity
friends discovered and trust
friends needs you when they are needed
friends never seem bail on you at such
friends builds a tower in your heart
friends ... end up hurting you and leave

finally update

2009-03-08T22:40:00.000-07:00

so as you people already know, im no longer the basketball guy anymore, instead i am now basketball and floorball guy HAHA ~! was not really fond to floorball at first when i first attended a few of its training until Miss Tania invited me to join the PFL (Penang Floorball League) and then i invited Daniel Tan and eventually Mr James Tan and Gary Lee join as well. I bet alot of people out there didnt expect that i would join floorball, but right now im actually loving this contact sport and so is Daniel and James. FIREBRANDS all the way man ~ our never say die attitude will never die till the end of the league ~! LOL POWER BARS hahahaha.

Though basketball is still my first priority but lol can you imagine that i would actually have an intention to buy a stick now?? damn is all James Fault haha ~! oh well

(nice nice?? i love it, fatpipe wiz 29 ice, ahhhh another desire another obsession.)
its either that or i would buy a red one instead or better yet i might consider i hole blade if our coach jason would want me to play forward or center, but for right now is wiz blade for my defender position ^^. ahhhh love it haha

(this is a view of what a hole blade is, daniel tan is buying one ^^)
ahhh this sensational sport will be played throughout my daily life now. Too much to handle?? maybe? maybe not?
who ever that feel like they wanna try this game out, let me know alright? or just come at PBSM center at 2.30pm on saturdays. Firebrands will be training there for now ^^

OH OH ~!!! haha Firebrands started as underdogs at this league as we are new to it and we dont know shit bout this sport but as we progress, we got better and better. Quoted from Pastor Edward : firebrands is by far the fastest learner and the fastest to progress team that he have seen. GO FIREBRANDS LOL. though we lost most of the games but we learn from it, 8-0, 2-1, 6-3, and our latest game 2-2 ~!!!! FIRE BRANDS AND FRONTLINERS OH YEA~! though we are one, but i think FIREbrands could have won but no worries, god wants us to draw for a reason, a reason to toughen our spirits and to continue have that never say die attitude. Firebrands would be different next year ... PFL, just watch this team grow ... is all for GOD or nothing at all... i am proud of my team ....

well i'll stop here , exam tomorrow , SAYONARA :)

forever i'll stay a basketballer, but also part time in floorball ...

forever i'll be yours but i know you'll never be mine ... its okay because though there is an absence of light in between the path of you and me, there will always be a light that will guide me to you. thanks for the memories

currently : not laughing at joyce
listening to : moments of truth and six candles by FM static
mood : not moody yet not happy
going to : study and reply my sms
craving for : more floorball competitions

hair cut >.<

2009-01-03T08:14:00.000-08:00

OKAY ~! i trim my freaking hair and i regret every second of it LOL , every snip the barber took i was praying that it will look nice, but nwo i end up looking like a girl ~! sucks being me now haha ... i want my long hair back `!!! argh but its okay, hair can grow haha ...

im suppose to post about my new painted room which is blue and green but im too lazy to post up pictures of it ... so i'll delay the post once again woot ~! sorry guys

so enough with the hair ... 2008 was just way way hectic for me ... its a year with so many decisions to be made and dreams to be tore down ~! having to see my dearest ones leaving to places ... and worst having my kindy friend going all the way to langkawi for NS ~! sucks right lol but its a phase where everyone has to go through ... 2008 a year which is so dramatic, a year so full of drama, a year that has scenes of drama tv shows where tears and or hatred break through in life ... maybe at times its just so happening that life is just like a drama? everyone acts and at the end, everyone talks bout it and laugh.. NO?? or am i right hee ... but a drama always ends up with happy endings , but my drama life jsut ends up in total chaos HAHA

love? whats love? here it goes again, andrew with his love talk ... but hey im serious ... what is love? can u define it? if u do know what isit. can u tell me? i know someone who does, my walking dictionary CALEB YEOH haha ... i love the way how caleb defines love ... i heard it once, but i forgot what isit ~! so caleb do tag my board on what LOVE is ... eveyone can just use the word love in so many ways when they dont know what it really means? what does the word love carries, how strong a word that can be but people just use it in vain ... i love you, this three words could demolish a persons future, even their life, ended up being a serial killer LOL JOKE ... *love* is it just a feeling? no? is it just a word? no? is it just a word of unending lie?? hmmmmm ... how do u people define it?

to me, love means forgiving ... weird but yea ... not gonna go into detail with it but to me it means to forgive someone if u love them ... whats the point loving someone if u do not forgive the mistake that they have done ... lets put it in a different point of perspective, jesus died for our sins, forgive us everytime we did something wrong, WHY?? cause he loves us ... see my point? haha kk i'll stop here xd

*forever* another word to pay attention to ... what does it mean to u? forever? unending? infinity? everlasting? why not u tell me? LOL never use this word if u dun ever mean it ... though people do use this word in vain as well `! nevertheless, it may jsut be a word ... to me , its a word that carries a strong influence towards a persons life ... and i shall give my opinion again ... to me , forever is trust ... wannaknow why? not gonna tell u ... go figure it out HAHA

so back to 2008 ... i'll post my whole entire 2008 after i post about my room ... OKAY>? ahhaha ~! so u all would jsut have to wait >.< if any of u still come to my blog la that is lol ... so im gonna sotp here ... wanna go cry at my new hair d LOL

currently = having some thoughts bout a certain someone
listening to = secondhand serenades entire album (his songs are fantastic)
craving for = cheese ~!!!
looking forward to = first day of college
mood = neutral
laughing at = joyce ~! cause she thinks she HEN MEI XD lol jokin

if you leave me tonight, i'll wake up alone
dont tell me that i have to face this on my own

christmas party 08

2008-12-30T23:10:00.001-08:00

i know i am like so many weeks late with my post but haha who cares ... my blog anyways woot ~! so lets see ... this year i receive presents from friends BUT NONE from family ... what to do , economy going down, people living at the line where they are suffering and all ... so be glad that we still could have a party and exchange of gifts during christmas ... many people are already happy to receive just one PEANUT for a present ... im serious LOL

so the party was at deborah's house, wasnt hard to find ... jsut have to look for a house with many ANNOYING/loud kids ...LOL firebrands are loud im serious , thats why we have the irresisable influence towards other people right? lol one thing bout the party is that, htere aint enough food, haha khai hern and khai shin had like 2 piece of roti canai? i had two piece of pizza and thats it ... i had lots of fun taking candid pictures of people,

FOR EXAMPLE

and lots more ... lazy to wait for the stupid loader to load all the pics ... more pics on my facebook ...

oh and the food jam SYSTEM >.<
pics ....

so jam just to get food right? and it proves that firebrands has smart people when it comes to food ... you know why?? see the next picture

HAHA we took the whole container of fries to ourself ... not bad right? well it may seem selfish but haha ... well i didint had any of it cause i was too busy taking pics ... diidnt wanna get my camera oily ... XD

later after the banquet ... all came together and sing carols wooo XD pics pics

oh dang i forget bout the string game >.< stupid judson and gerald KNS one lol ... that game is somehow dumb but very very interesting ... will get it one day ... maybe tonight during pastor's barbeque ~!!! judson u wait ... i'll conquer the game LOL

and it all ended in messy present receiving session ~! PICS

and after the present thingy ~! sesi syok sendiri WOOT lol

more pics in my facebook ... lazy to upload d >.<
all in all ... fantastic christmas

next post ... my new painted room hee ...

currently : sick like a mad cow
listening to : love remains the same by gavin rossdale
craving for : pasta
looking forward to : new semester in college

half the time the world is ending
the truth is i am done pretending

freed???

2008-12-29T00:13:00.000-08:00

youth camp was AWESOME~!!!
on the first day ... i bet lots of people thinks that the place suck and all ... well i do agree on that but i enjoy it thoroughly ... WHY??? cause maybe i just love long walks ... and im serious, the walk from the dorm to the hall was just SWEATY haha ... i would still say the camp is great and all, we have like three speakers this year ... tony foster, chris and ENTAU JOEL ~! kanasai im serious ... he damn entau okay? and i aint gay ... i just like to give comment hahha ~! and chris has green EYES ~! damn nice okay ... and i jsut notice that on the last day of camp hah

last year i expected god to do wonders in my life ... but this year's camp ... i went to camp expecting nothing ... i wanted a surprise from god ... and yes he did surprise me ... this camp made me think bout missions , discipleship ... all of this were running through my mind ... though we are free to do whatever we want but we need to set our priorities right as well ... so im glad i went to camp despite i was having difficulties going there as an older person ... i admit that i was kinda worried that i would be left out and so but hey i had fun ... right PEOPLE?? i had new PARTNERS and met new cough*evil*cough people ~!

the food at hosba valley was superb ~! i love the fried rice haha ... sorry to those who diidnt get any rice ... i guess we took too much ... its WE okay ... not only me
so whoever that diidnt go to camp this year ... its okay ... NEXT YEAR will be another year ... so look forward to it ... cause i know i am ... YES YES i know im old haha but i love being a camper ... get to mess with people wahahahaha or i would put as how julian always say me ... andrew stop flirting LOL ... i aint flirting k, i am enjoying life ... LOL

no pictures yet though ... will update with pictures soon ... and will update bout my NEW painted room tomorrow or maybe tonight if im not lazy ...

currently = coughing real bad
listening to = save you by simple plan
thinking of = how ot celebrate new year's eve
mood = sleepy

cause shes BITTER SWEET

2008-12-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

will update soon ... AND HELLO to AYC TEAM MATES lol

hmmmm ...

2008-11-20T09:53:00.000-08:00

so yet i'm here again ... its just me and my blog... no one else as always
its so demandingly harsh being lonely ... how bout when someone tells you that you cant talk to a person that you have feelings for? sadening and somehow harshful isnt it ... how could someone be so selfish by asking someone not to communicate with the one they do have feelings for? isnt it like destroying a love that never even started?
how would someone view a couple as not perfect when there isnt any start to their story?? ... not being able to talk nor keep in touch with the ones you like/love is never easy ... it sucks seriously ... the way i see it, its just unfair

well thats life i suppose ... its never easy to have the ones you do have feelings for ... but once everything is overcome ... smooth sailing all the way

whats life without obstacles ... yes it might be easy, it might be what we wanted , but its never right ... oh well

imagine if our life were like the matrix?? imagine if we were all programs living in a program world in total controlled by machines ... i would say its an improvement HAHA...

breach upon the ways
of total chaos in the world
having nothing to sublime in our days
nothing but just a blur

not being able to see you
just turns everything against the world
sitting alone in dreadful blue
all just because of a girl ...

basketball basketball basketball ... whose up for a game of basketball, just message me alright ... could use some company on the court rather than just me playing by myself haha ... i know i know ... have always been a loner on the court ... its just me so bare with it ...

finals is coming ... assignments are over ... youth camp is a month away ... but i not sure whether im going or not ... yet i dont feel youthful no more ... yet acceptance might be a denial as well ... lol am thinking too much ... nights bloggy

im listening to thunder ...

2008-11-02T11:38:00.000-08:00

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

maybe?? just maybe there is some way out of all this ... a way that i could be myself again ... no wait i dont think so ... getting wrapped up in vines under your magic spell just kept me in the same spot and it seems like it could go on forever ... i have been alone for awhile so when are you gonna stop? when are you gonna tell me ... maybe things just wouldnt seem to be the same ... it never did anyways right? haha

blissful as it may seem ... nothing feels right knowing that you arent here ... no im not overly obsess ... it just doesnt fele the same ... it feels like a missing piece to a wonderful puzzle ... a puzzle could always be done if every piece of it is there ... but what happens if one of the pieces gone missing ... it would never be a great puzzle ....

lol yes yes i know i know i have been so 'emo' lately ... well sorry to the readers ... not my fault alright , im just writing what i felt like writing and yea i would continue to do so , so reconsider to ever view my blog ...

a year can go by so freaking fast ... comeon ... the spm takers are in their mids of the most important exam of their lifes ... how fast can it possibly be? it was like just yesterday when u are still running around playing tag with your friends ... it never gets old hmmm. a year can go by so fast, how would a day be when its only 24 hours ... so many things can happen in just one day that you cant even imagine ... no one could guarantee whether they could wake up alive the very next morning ... why? its because time could just take it away from you ... you might even sleep through and never wake up ... so be glad and thank god you could open your eyes every morning when you wake up cause you wouldnt know what might happen to you in just a blink of an eye ... LOL it sounded so scary yet true right ... hmmm

im gonna go to bed ... nights bloggy ...

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

when will that thunder ever come back ....

bring out the rain and bring out the thunder

2008-10-28T12:26:00.000-07:00

ever felt that emptiness when someone just isnt there? ever felt that you need your questions to be answered so badly that you would wait forever? ever felt so empty handed when something that is bound to be yours just slip right out of your hand? ever felt so mindless when you just dont know what is happening ... ever felt so miserably lost when you aint told of a reason you were left behind?

in mere seconds, people so close and dearly to you can just walk out of your life without you having a trace to find him/her back ... its amazing isnt it ... one second, one split second could change the whole game play of your life ...

a few days back ... it was raining so heavily at night, people would just cuddle in their blanket and sleep soundly till morning, but not for me ... i cant seem to sleep and yes i stayed up all night ... sucks being me LOL ... in the end i went out for a drive, first to greenlane then to the coastal highway and ended at a housing area somewhere near town, a place where is close to the sea, the big wide unending stream of salty water we call the sea ... i was there for quite sometime as i gaze up onto the 16th floor of an apartment ... that is when i counted floor by floor from 1 to 16 ... was practically staring at it for so freaking long that i didnt notice the time ... i parked my car and walked to 7eleven ... ya u must be wondering why would i walk when i can just drive there ... lets just say i love walking under the rain and taking a stroll down the road once in awhile ... just as i left my car ... walk out to the road and on my way to the store, there was this huge thunder that came after a dark blue lightning... am no kidding, it lighted up the night for a second ... it was amazing yet scary to watch ... despite the rain, i still kept walking to the store and as i open the door, the cashier working at the 7 eleven said 'bang, kamu okay tak? mau payung?' lol i just smiled at him and said its okay and bought ice cream ... mango ice cream haha ... you people must think that im mad right, as to eat ice cream when im soaking wet and so freaking cold ... but yea, i just had to taste that ice cream ... it reminds me of someone ^^ ... the expression on the cashier's face was so funny when i bought the ice cream haha yet i cant smile ... sat beside the store and just slowly ate my ice cream ... my whole body was practically shaking but bite by bite reminds me of the day i first time had that ice cream ... it was a normal ice cream with mango jelly in the middle ..

as soon as i finish my ice cream, i went back in the store to buy some chewing gum as i felt like biting something ... i walked around for abit and pass arizona, there was quite alot of people still playing games at this late hour ... at around erm i forget what time, the rain remain the same as i walk back to my car to warm off ... but my plan back fired because as i am soaking wet and it feels so uneasy when you are contempt in a car with another temperature ... so in the end i turn on the air cond haha ... and continue to freeze ... and i dont know is it that 'chunted' that when i turn on the radio, the song thunder by boys like girls was playing on mixfm ... as the rain got smaller, i slowly drove back home ... i reach home and made myself a hot milo and sat down on my couch watching KUNGFU PANDA lol ... and the end i feel asleep right infront of the tv

it all seem so real, the thunder, the lightning, the song, the rain ... maybe i was suppose to be there that night ... and i am glad i did

the funny thing bout that day was, i couldnt recall which day it was ... its either im too blur or i had short term memory lost ... well i will never forget that lightning which i saw ... and that loud roar of thunder ... but all in the end i will not forget that night ... i did alot of silly things but i think its all worth while haha

oh well ... gonna go to bed now >.< having class tomorrow and im sitting here 4am in the morning typing this post ... WOW lol ... no pictures sorry ... but i dont think anyone would read this anyway HAHA ~! its like a diary hmmm with alot of fantasies in reality ... aight im out

nights people

currently = facing this world alone
music currently listening to = thunder by boys like girl

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

short update

2008-10-26T02:21:00.000-07:00

ever had someone you love so badly and you thought that everything would go right as things continue being so wonderful? i know i have ... everything was just the way i wanted, everything was jsut so perfect but as it goes on, things might just change in ONE DAY ... 24 hours can change your whole life ... within that very one day, something or someone would kill off your dreams, your hopes or taking away the one you love most ... never mistreat someone just for the benefit of having that satisfaction, once done there wont be any returns

oooo haha stop with the emo business ... so yea ... been busy lately with my college assignments and inter college games ... yes i know my team lsot all four match but hey ... its TEAM B ... didnt expect much from it but kinda disappointed in TEAM A when they lost the finals to inti by just two points ... sigh total sadness i know haha

im gonna stop here ... gonna do my assignments now XD will u[date sooner or later with pics

you have put me through so much pain,
and you made me feel the worst of all,
you have lied to me with words so vain,
but you're the one who kept me standing tall.

you made me cry so many times before,
numerous times i've been forced down,
the gestures you've made me sore,
and you're the reason why i stand my ground.

you push me to limits i cannot take,
but i love you so much and you know it,
you said you love me too but then i break,
and people keep telling me that i need to quit.

i know that in the end we'll all be okay,
but for now i need to know what's true,
i'll be the guy that's remembered as a stray,
you've broken me so many times and i'd still die for you.

Solemn

2008-10-21T02:03:00.000-07:00

have you ever felt so down and moodless out of a sudden? feeling so darn upset but never knew why you felt that way? ever felt so down to earth feeling that something is missing? maybe something or isit someone? do you feel so excluded at some point of life, not just in our love life but friends as well? do you feel so rejected when someone just doesnt accept of who you really are? have you ever felt so foolish that you wish you would just die and hopefully no memories would be brought with you? ever felt so lonely when there is just no one that would sit down and really hear you out?

sometimes i tend to wonder ... if all of us has our own purpose in life ... whats mine??? isnt life itself deceiving enough ... whats the point having a purpose when nothing in the world turns out to be right? feeling so alone at times ... its just so not the way to live a life given by GOD to us ... everything just clash and burns

i never like being lonely, being left without a clue in just seconds... merely the choice of life which i would choose but life as it is, are just full with mystery and having us to solve this mystery like puzzles are just too much for me to comprehend.

just the other day when i was checking my email, there was this chain email send to me saying ... Define the meaning of love and what love means to you and send it to 10 people. Love is where two person share one emotion that bonds them together as one. Maybe i forgotten how to love someone but then i start to think ... i have always loved everyone ... it doesnt have to be just two person and better yet i start thinking again ... memories will stay memories, no matter how hard you tend to forget it, it will always remain there as a part of our life. But when you tend to love someone so much that you would just do anything for him/her ... LOVE is just a four letter word used by many, but alot of them never knew what love is. Many has used the word LOVE in vain never realizing the word could carry such an impact or could be said such a strong feeling to the other person ...

LOL ~! what am i saying ... i will go back to my assignments now ^^ anyone that feels like hanging out ... just give me a call

Andrew OUT

oooo XD

2008-10-16T05:08:00.000-07:00

oooo got this from Jiun Mei's blog ... seems interesting

Put your music player on shuffle.
For each question press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
You must write the name of the song down no matter what!!!

If someone says ‘Is this okay?’ You say:
what's left of me by nick lachey

yea i guess so ...
Cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin
to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
what's left of me.

What would best describe your personality?
this is a call by thousand foot krutch

LOL not bad ... emo as it can be XD

What do you like in a guy/girl?
She Fu*king hates me by Puddle of Mudd

OKAY WHAT THE F ~!!! hahaha
so the person which i like turns out to hate me? DAMN no wonder

How do you feel today?
my immortal by evanescence

so true ... i feel so broken and down today

What is your life’s purpose?
Bartender by T-pain

wah ~! my life's purpose to get a chick by being a bartender? HAHAHA... i should start finding a spot at the clubs lol

What do your friends think of you?
Again by faber drive

underneath my skin is it just anger, just frustration?
underneath my skin is it decisions or these feelings?
it always hurt my mind (it always hurt my mind)
it always killed my pride inside.
it always wastes my time
again, again..

again i bleed, again i shake.
again i fall, again i break.
wasted, hated.
again, again..

so my friends think that im a sad sad boy huh ... well true enough lol

What do you think of your parents?
over you by chris daughtry

im over my parents?? HAHAHHA `~!!! i wont still be here without my parents wei

What do you think about very often?
dark blue by jack mannequin

welll not much comment XD

Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..
Just dark blue

What is 2+2?
All you wanted by michelle branch ...

so 2+2 is what i always wanted??? true enough ... 2 person 2 kids???

What do you think of the person you like?
At the cross by hillsong united

yea ... the person i like has to adore GOD ^^

What is your life story?
My Heart by irwansyah & acha

OMG OMG haha damn true~!! who doesnt have this song... ask me to send you ... its so true okay OMG

Di sini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Di sini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin, tak akan pernah
Sayangku akan hilang...

If we love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
I wouldn't risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart...my heart...

my life is just about conquering the obstacles to be with the one i love ... but it never seems to succeed huh? XD

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hero by Nickelback

wtf??? i wanna be a hero??? haha SUPER ANDREW TO THE RESCUE

What do you think when you see the person you like?
Angel by Shaggy

ooooo of course this is true right? who doesnt see their lovers as their angels?
girl you're my angel ... you;re my darling angel

What do your parents think of you?
Forever by Hillsong United

worshipping God hmmm ... well enough

What will you dance to at your wedding?
menjaga hati by yovie & nuno (lol Cheryl sent me this song)

Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini
menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi aku takkan pergi
kau menjauh aku takkan jauh
sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

hmmm i dunno whether i would dance to this song ...

What will they play at your funeral?
ting mama de hua by jay chou

HAHAHAHHA are you telling me that im dead cause i didnt listen to my mum ~! OMG i must start listening to my mum

What is your hobby/interest?
tongue tied by faber drive

oooo so screwing up on things that i say is my hobby? LOL fair enough

What is your biggest secret?
bu de bu ai by pan wei bo

errrr .... no comment

What do you think of your closest friends?
Here i am Lord by hillsong united

hmmmmm ... yeaps my closest friends adores god XD

What should you post this as?
Tong Hua by Guang Liang

THIS POST IS JUST A FAIRY TALE ~!!! wtf ~! i waste my time doing this hahaha

JIUN MEI U WASTE MY TIME NIA ISH LOL

Tag replies

2008-10-11T00:09:00.000-07:00

jiun mei : how can i forget u har? the most blur donkey i every met JOKIN XD
joyce : hello joyce XD
ju : will update soon enough le ... busy now with assignments and basketball haha XD
yan: will update pretty soon la dont you worry alright HAHA SOON ENOUGH
tiffany : nah not really a fan of USA .. but i dislike other team so YEA XD
eulene: yes yes ... just updated my tag board but for blog updates... LATER NOT NOW
tim: who u calling fat har ... take away the A and put I ... become FIT
jkwan : u aint god no mroe man ... i have SEEN YOU PLAY haha
charis : hello mortal XD
sara: how can i forget my wonderful sis XD
maril: will link u pretty soon ... too lazy to do anything now
adelene: hello MOM XD

well you guys must be wondering what took me so long to reply everyone of you and why i aint updating my blog ... will blog bout it pretty soon ... am too lazy to do anything haha ~! ... see you guys pretty soon ... GOD BLESS

ANDREW OUT

painful week

2008-08-11T09:09:00.000-07:00

yeaps yeaps ~! its been a tough week ... its been basketball almost every single day thansk to MR JULIAN who made me crave for it or maybe its just a passions truck since the olympics is around the corner ~! and yes OLYMPICS IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW wooo ~! get to see basketball everyday ... and you must be thinking why watch on tv when u can go out and ball anytime right? HAHA well

this is the reason why ... it might not seem that its serious and all but if u were to see my arm on that day ... you would freak out ... its fractured yea and just a small hole in the bone ... nothing serious will heal in a couple of days ... unable to full use my strength yet but i will abre with it ... thats the reason why i have

thsi on my arm right now ~! sucks to the max seriously ... cant even drive properly DAMN ~! haha oh well ... dont care im still balling if u all didint know ... an injury just wont stop me from basketball ... :)

well yea ... now my second semester has just started ... have to wake up 7 in the morning again ... sucks being in college ... but at elast i dont have tow ear uniform no more ...and its fun cause my class is directly opposite MGS's second floor which me and my gang go to the window and kacau them at times HAHA ... and yet i saw megan and sharon today through those windows LOL

OH OH ~!!!! anyone who didnt watch USA basketball team against CHINA ... YOU SUCK ~!

KOBE ~!!!

there he goes again

DWAYNE WADE ~!!

lebron james ... yao ming on the floor

the USA TEAM ...

USA beat china 101- 70 ... 31 points LOL ... oh well i expect USA to win this turn ... china gave a good fight from the start ... but at the end ... they just feel through ... lebron is jsut on fire >.<

im sorry, im just human

2008-08-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

im human ... i aint god ... and like very human ... human thinks when they have no clue what happen, human thinks when they ask a question and the question were never answered ...

im not that perfect to jsut not think of the circumstances ...

im sorry im jsut human ... thats the five words i could only say

a mirror that is broken once

2008-08-08T20:00:00.000-07:00

our heart is like a mirror ... once broken it can never be replaced nor fix ...
maybe that is why people call it ... once broken considered sold??
ever heard of the term revivetalising ... it actually exist in british vocabulary
even as hurtful as it seems ... things would jsut happen without a clue
people always say ... lightning wont struck the same place twice
but how could one struck my heart twice ...
things just really amaze me at times
what are we living for ... what is our purpose in life
i know i know ... we are living for god ... god gave us a purpose
but have you ever seem to wonder what purpose has god have on you
have you ever wonder why is the heart torn into so many pieces as we keep living on this planet ...
i would just love to join GOD in heaven now ... at least i dont have to feel this pain

i waited at the playground ... so many hours there seem to be no reply ... i am just scared something happen ... im scared things would look bad if i open my eyes ... im just scared surprises kicks in ... to be truthful i hate surprises ... i have been receiving to many surprises in one lifetime ... the only thing that would make me happy through a surprise ... is waking up next to you ...

i was born to tell you i love you
i am torn to do what i have to do
to make you mine, stay with me tonight

have you ever love someone so deeply that you never wish to see another ... love is not just for one ... but its for both parties to work hard to achieve their love to the limit ... love has no limit ... its an endless river that keeps running ... but rivers always have boulders to block our path ... that is when two has to come as one to flow through this huge boulder ... there is no love without any obstacles
correct me if im wrong ... everyone is vulnerable ... no one is invincible

when there are doubts ... always ask ... be truthful ... never give up ... never lose a fight without even wielding your sword to fight for what you believe ... love always lead to a broken heart ... but if you learn how to mend each others heart ... there will be nothing stoping ur love to flow through this river

a person that always seem to be strong is usually the weakest of all ... they tend to be strong so no one would worry ... so everyone would think he/she is okay ... so everyone would think he is strong to overcome everything ... let me tell you this ... people who seems to be the strongest are the weakest link ... they jsut dont show it ... its their nature ... dont take things for granted ... love is not just a toy ... love is a bond between two

stay true to your heart
stay true to your love
stay true to your instincts

sylvia ... i will always stay true to you

august 5th

2008-08-05T01:21:00.001-07:00

august 3rd 2008 ... i could say that its the day i would regret for the rest of my life ... i thought the only day i would regret in my life would be two years ago ... but i guess history is repeating itself ... i should have just keep my mouth shut ... i should have just go with it ... but i diidnt wanna lie ... i wanna tell her everything ... i wanna tell her what i feel ... i wanna be true to her ... that is why i told her ... everything happen for a reason ... and the reason would be cause i wanna be truthful to you ... i fought against all this obstacles ... i bang my body and crash against the great wall of china ... i fought for you ... and i will keep fighting for the love and justice which i know that it exist ... because i know that you are weak inside ... you tried to fight but you cant seem to fight no more ... bie pick up your sword ... stand your ground ... fight for me ... like how i fought for you ... secure me with your shield ... as i secure you with my body ... you will always have me and i am hoping i would always have you ... secure me with your love ... secure me with the desire to be with me ... fight through all this foes all this obstacles ... and we would be happy together like how i know it should be ... the foes that we are fighting ... is all the lies we had, all those people tearing us apart, those people who just wanna take you away from me ... and most imprtantly ... secure me ... fight the jealousy away from me ... secure me with all you can ... cause i know u can ... you just have to try

ignore all those bad times we had ... ignore all those tears we shared ... i know i have hurt you but do think of the laughter we had , the happy time when we are together ... wont this happy moments just overshadow our worst times?? ... im letting go of our past to start fresh ... would you do the same for me ... stop thinking bout the sad times and stop thinking bout how you gonna hurt me ... think bout how happy you are gonna make me and how much love we share ... i am sure the love we share could overshadow all this darkness ... stop thinking bout the negative side ... think of the positive side when you are the only person that could make me happy

i would rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else ...

i wrote this on 3rd august when it all began

baby come back to me(its not a set of good lyrics but ... im okay with it)

Have you ever turn back to see
The tears you left behind
If only you could hear my heart
Just one more time

Even when I close my eyes
You are the only one I see
Even I have to come to realize
You are the lost I cant replace

Baby come back to me

(Chorus)
Baby Why
That you have to leave me all alone
Since the day that you were gone
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby Why
Couldn’t you see we are meant to be
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby why

Walking on this empty road
Where our love was young and free
Waiting for the rain to stop
So you could come to me
I would give my life away
If our love can be safe
Cause I could still hear the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

(Chorus)

It kills me when you tell me
That you aint the one for me
That you just walk away and leave me
Love would bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Baby Why
That you have to leave me all alone
Since the day that you were gone
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby Why
Couldn’t you see we are meant to be
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why didn’t you come back to me
Baby why

august 4th

2008-08-05T00:59:00.000-07:00

a story that once once written so many months ago (months har not year)

the first ever day where i lay my eyes on you ... with ur school's uniform u ask me am i andrew chan ... i said i am ... she was selling her school's orchestra concert and ask me if i would wish to buy one ... in the end i help her to sell to other people which i came down to the canteen after my recess ...

few weeks pass by and destiny kicks in again as i see her and for the first time i hang out with her together with 2 other friends ... she was with her own friends but later around 2-3 pm ... i ask her if she would want to join us for a movie ... she said ok ... i still remember i paid for her ... generous as i could be maybe things just dont seem as friends

after that day ... we message each other alot as on the 7th day which i first hang with her ... i ask her to my friends birthday party ... thats when i know i wanna be with her ... i know it might just be a short time ... but it seem like i have known her forever ... on that very day she became mine ... its different from what i felt or what i did ... among both my ex ... she was the first girl which i first on with that could make me feel so comfortable ... maybe my love meter has just struck at that moment

things went so smoothly ... first month ... second month... third month ... fourth month ... and almost to fifth month ... that is when it all crashes down to the center of the earth ... she was my longest relation ... she was the ever girl that could stick with a sweet talker like me ... yes i admit i sweet talk alot but its just my natural self ... i could see she really loved me ... but like i always say, we will never realize how much we love someone until we let that person go ...

i have let her go for almost two years ... and i do come to realize that i could never love another girl as much as i love her ...

year 2008 ... things actually brighten up for me ... she calls me more often ... she hangs with me more often ... yes i am very happy cause the girl i love most in life is coming back to me ... but i guess i did something wrong that screwed the whole thing again ... bie ... come to realize no matter what you say or did to me ... my love for you will be burning as long as i trust in GOD ...

the reason i told you i was insecure was because ... there is so many guys going after you ... some would straight ask for your number even though is the first time he knows you ... some just propose to you straight away ... i think sometimes i have the right to be insecure as there is all this guys making me jealous over them ... i never admit to anyone that i have jealousy issues ... i just keep strong for you ... but i decided to tell you that day cause i dont wanna lie to you ... you said that if your love was strong enough i could always feel ur secure and comfort ... let me tell you this ...i do feel it ... when you are around me ... i do feel your secure when u are in my arms .... i do feel comfort when i clash against you ... but all this guys scares me at times ... i hope you understand .... i would always fight for you ... and will always love you ... let me know that you will do the same?

My game's server is down .... 22/7/08

2008-07-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

yea like what the title says ... the game which im playing Cabal Sea online is currently down so i have nothing better to do but just to blog ~!!!

first things first ... im having my semester break wooohoooo .... bad news is i think i flunk my finals OH WELLL~!!! HAHAHAHA

on saturday, did not went to the fish hook event which i wanted cause i have to attend my uncle's wedding and i didnt regret on that ... the wedding was at rasa sayang hotel... i had fun ... REALLY HAD FUN as in having fun in a WEDDING ~!! can you imagine that haha ... that was after the ceremony thing though which is having buffet dinner at my uncle's huge bungallow ... i brought her there and everyone of my relatives met her ... hee ^^ thats the main point on why did i had so much fun ... this is cause she was THERE ~!!! and the best part was ALCOHOL ... WOOHOOO ~!!! i had so much to drink that i forgot how many glasses i took haha ... its cool cause i still could drive home ... not easily drunk ^^

here are the pics during the ceremony

the bride the groom and the two lovely angels

my family

the ladies of the family

the guys of the family

angels

love them

me and my sis

it was my sisters idea LOL XD

and this idea was mine haha

FOOD

ahha need i say more??

the dudes again

so yea there was LOTS MORE PICS taken ... but im lazy to put them all ... had like 30... haha

and yea so on ... now to the buffet dinner at the huge house ... we had so much food and yet none was finish ... my uncle hired a live band ... somesort like a jazz band ... all of us were having fun dancing and stuuff ... i arrive late as i went to fetch HER at her house to batu feringghi hehe ... we were having fun ... we refuse to dance as you know la shy right ... BUT too bad for HER ... my dad pulled her up and started dancing with her hahaha ... my dad was the video man for the whole day ... welll less talk more pics ...

(you guys will never feel what i feel that night ... when she came over and held me close ... i know i love her and i always will ... no one knows how happy i was that night ... not even her ... sylvia ILY and i wanted to ask you to be mine that night ... maybe i was jsut afraid)

my uncle dancing to a song by michael jackson HAHA

my grandma and my mum

haha my dad pulled her to the dance floor

my dad rocks LOL

there he and she goes again LOL

eh hem ...

my dad and me singing better man XD

dont know why like that ... but i like it

the wine ^^

the vodka

the band

this was after i send HER back and came back to drink more XD

where everyone settles down XD

PIZZA XD

yea so that was what practically happen during my saturday ... an unforgetable day as i know it will not happen again unless one of my cousins decides to marry HEE ~!!! till here then ... BUBYE

JJ SAYS HI

INTRODUCING ~!! JJ CHAN / 23 june 2008

2008-06-22T09:27:00.000-07:00

and there i was returning from a very tiring day of group meeting at my friend's place ... when i were to open the gates to my house there he was ... staring at me with his eyes ... not literally his eyes cause i barely can see his eyes lol ...
i have a new PUP ~!!! a shitzu/shih tzu haha ... JJ CHAN ~!!! lol i didint had a pet for more than 8 years and now , i have a pup... COOL XD
its really unexpected ... even if iw ere to have a pet, it would be either a tortoise, fishes, or hamsters ... but wow i have a pup now xd

BLACK AND A LIL BIT OF WHITE ~!!! looks like KUNGFU PANDA xd

PRESENTING~!! JJ

looks like a black fur ball xd

so cute

... awww

blacky >.< xd

argh ~!!!! cute cute haha

JJ chan

he is actually bending his head ... he is so black we cant even notice in pictures lol

so yea ... new member of the family

weeeeeeeeeee ~!!! breed a shitzu and a bulldog together and u get a bullshit XD

my NEW PUP ~!!! a shitzu/shih tzu yay XD

LONG AWAITED UPDATE 15/3/08

2008-06-15T06:00:00.000-07:00

ish ish can u people stop bugging me to update?? LOL so yea today is 15/3/08 and yes ANDREW is actually UPDATING his blog ... so first things first REBELS FOR CHRIST~!
WOOHOOOOOOO .... i would say it turn out pretty well as we had like less than 10 practices??? 5 days of intensive practise did make alot of difference. RIGHT GUYS? haha ... and yea the dance could be said very unorganize but hey dixon did a pretty good job for a first time. DRAMA ~!!! it rox wahahaha, sharon, leanne, ruth, nehemiah, EVERYONE WAS GREAT ~!!! i hope you guys are proud of yourself alright, cause im sure as HELL that we did FICKING fantastic lol ... i would wanna thank each and everyone of you to put such an effort to come and help and make things right ... and i would wanna say thanks for TAHAN-NING my bad attitude LOL ... wanna say sorry to some of you people that i yelled and screamed at ... SORRY, gomenasai ^^

so here are some of the pictures for the preparation for the concert

the guys dance ~!! WOOHOOO lol

i have no FICKING idea what i was doing but yea ~! lovely boxers haha

joyce and marilyn HAHA XD

typical sharon XD

ELISHA ~!!! aint he sexy?

james,charis and daniel with the banner ~! LOOK AT JAMES LOL

the picture says it all LOL

lovely isnt it? XD

so hardworking aiseh

wow , she can actually fit in one haha

gambateh sharon

TEAM WORK WOOHOOOO ~!!! go girls ... justin is a girl too so yea XD

who is this hot looking guy? XD

and there he is again

lady's power~!

SHARON bites ... becareful

marilyn with her **hotdog**

timothy and maril~! timothy is hot aint he? girls what are u waiting for? XD

rebels for christ~!

I am so proud of you guys ... you guys accomplish such a big event ... all the tears, all the sweat, all the misunderstandings, what kept us standing is GOD ... he keep us whole, he kept us as one as we call ourselfs FIREBRANDS. We are firebrands and be proud of who we are ... even as we grow old, there is always firebrand within us. Never forget who we are and we can always achieve something as ONE. Special tahnks to leroy, sarah, isaac, and eunice who help this youth to achieve something that they will always remember for the rest of their lifes.

All the hardwork and sweat ... its not to gain popularity but to glorify GOD ...
never fall in despair that is what i learned ... the devil himself will do what ever he could to bring us down ... sharon's sprain ankle, beverly's sprain ankle, my hurting back bone, frustration over lines we couldnt remember, tears of worries ... dont let all this pull you guys down ... always stand up and believe and you can accomplish it. TIll here then ... update sooner or later ^^

something i have written

2008-03-13T09:44:00.000-07:00

number 1
isolating myself in this darkened cave
suffocating in a manner which nobody could save
the spirit of love from my heart which i gave
could never be brought back without a faith

bitterness from the heart grows day by day
love would be the price i would have to pay
maybe i should turn the other way
but hell no, i aint gay

things might be smoothing at the very start
but it always ended me being the retard
how i wish we wouldnt be apart
my heart is like a bullseye shot with a dart

number 2
angel by day devil by night
how i wish we wouldnt have to fight
nothing matters to you when you know im right
im blinded by your love blinded by my sight

seeing the fact that my love is true
but my world always turns to red from blue
sometimes i am misled without a clue
but i will always stick to you just like glue

lost in his dilemma // march 13

2008-03-13T06:14:00.000-07:00

windows shut, doors close, lights off, airconditoner on at 16, wearing nothing but my boxers ... the only presence of light is from my comp ... i wouldnt say i am emo but right now im just lost ... lost from life ... lost from my personal touch in life ... maybe i dont deserve anything but failure ... life is a mess when you are out of options ... yea life aint that great when u have no options and you have to make a decision quick ...

well people ... i did not accomplish what i aim for in my spm ... could be said a very disappointment for me because usually when i didnt do great in my exams, i am satisfy with my scores even if i failed to get high marks because i know i did my best ... but regardless to my spm results ... its not acceptable for me at all as i know i could have done better ... yes i know ... its over but the satisfactory is not there ... i could have did it so much better and yet i screwed up another important part of my life ... heartbreaks/PMR/SPM ... yea i screwed it all up ... maybe i am not that worthy to achieve anything beyond my dreams ... i aint gonna accept the fact that i did pass my spm with this results ... even i cant bare to see this results and yet how could i show it to my parents

right ... move on ...

so what have i been doing this days ... i was stuck on this new internet online game called cabal online ... its something like wow but i would say its so much better ... and its free lol ...

i had this youth leader retreat camp on the 10th and 11th of march ... seriously i didnt really expect that i would turn up for this camp but eventually god did his ways in me and i just went without any questions ... at first i really didnt think that i would learn alot from this camp but let me tell u this ... this camp taught me alot of things ... leadership is born in everyone one of us ... that i agree from now ... well for sure in thsi camp i had lots of fun with the other leaders ... ya so now im out ... am gonna think and start thinking of my options ...

will update soon i guess ... alright Andrew is OUT

oh by the way SHARON ... let go of those baggages and thoughts bout you being a senior pastor's kid ... you are no different from any of us ... dont expect too much from yourself ... like pastor edward said ... go with the flow ... dont go against it alright?? and i dare say you did a great job and you are only 15 ... so keep it up ... there is always people here for you ... you just need to ask ... be strong alright girl?? haha

last but not least SHARON , the song almost lover is stuck in my head nwo cause of you haha

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

life without school nor work / Feb 28th

2008-02-27T09:56:00.000-08:00

tagboard replies
Andrew to jkwan = HAHA floorball is stupid ~! but its fun as well ~! its like taking a stick hitting balls ~! oh wait that doesnt sound right ~! LOL

Andrew to Nicole = haha too bad ~! im sorry la i dunno hwo to make the words bigger ... im dumb i know

Andrew to sharon = hi sharon ... u aint a retard >.< i jsut amde thsi blog alive again like erm? last week which is 19th feb

Andrew to Jojo = ish another one complaining bout my fonts ... u do for me la ... i dunno hwo to do HAHA

Andrew to yan = haha yeaps jumper and kungfu dunk is nice ~! agreed hehe

Andrew to vivian = u should be studying LOL

Andrew to joshT = its okay if u dun understand cantonese HAHA ~!!! i can teach u ... or well u could be entertained when i laugh nonstop and start whacking u two LOL

Andrew to wei-lynn= hihi ~! lol wow u found my blog ... will link u up soon ... too lazy to do it now

Andrew to dwayne = PAY DAY PAY DAY ~!!! LOL

Andrew to emoshern = yes exactly ~!!!! agreed with caleb ~!

Andrew to ade = sorry la lol ~! I AM SORRY

Andrew to Jiun = when u come back i buy extra big one for u k? LOL if cant finish i help u eat ahha

Andrew to sarah= ITS NICE RIGHT ~!! yay another jamal FAn lol

hey am back ... sorry for not posting for almost a week??
aint really busy is just that ... im too lazy ... life right now is so dull and boring ... i sleep at 9am in the morning wake up at 5 pm ... go out to have dinner with josh/caleb ... go back home around 12am ... play games till 9am again ...
yeaps thats probably what im doing right now ... sad right?? everyone is like bugging me to study right now but hey i got a question ... why are u all so eager wanting me to study? lol ... well i do want to study but jsut i dunno what courses do i wanna do ... lifes a bitch right when u cant decide which road to take?
parents including my sis wanting me to start studies early so i could finish earlier ... but hey let me ask you something ... how could i study something which i dont enjoy doing? am i right people???

ya what i want to do right now is take SAM at disted ... btu guess my parents and my sis dont agree with it ... in their mind SAM = australia = money
so my family doesnt have the money to allow me to study sam just to pull my study life longer ...
but seriously if i were to take SAM .. i could at least decide by then what i want to do ... come on im jsut 18 ... the pressure all pushing on me ... i cant decide ... NOR i want people to decide it for me ... i want to make my decision ... well if i cant go college for sam ... most probably im going form 6 LOL ~! im serious no joke
well this is practically what i was thinking this whole week ... life aint easy har ... well all of us have to get the best out of it anyways ...

and right now ... i jsut heard that my aunt has gone into a very critical status ... my family tree is shrinking ... every year my reunion dinner gets smaller ... well at least their at a better place now ...

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

dont this words just makes u think of someone dearly to you?

Dont you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Dont you ever say you dont like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, youre better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
Cuz theres nothin bout you I would change.

dont try to be someone else ... if they dont love you the way you are ... let them love others instead

Happy birthday to UNCLE JO ~!!! josh's father ~! hehe

well im out
current mood = emo

i miss MY home court ... my one true love? XD

Nocturnal Life? LOL / feb20

2008-02-19T08:48:00.000-08:00

Im back ... and yet another day of total boredom sitting my butt down on my chair and stare at my comp for HOURS `! ... yea i know ... NO LIFE lol but at least im enjoying it i guess ... so yea last night while playing dota i felt hungry around 3.40am so i went down to jamal to buy food ... oh by the way jamal has the best fried chicken, if u haven tried it u should, i bet Caleb and Josh will agree HAHA am i right guys? lol

this is what i had ... mee goreng with chicken YUM

the food taste good when u are hungry so yea its fantastic but abit pricey dont you think so? mamak food are always expensive so yea

bout the concert ... nothing progressing yet as im still waiting for mark to get me a script so i could ask for another audition to audition the parts or maybe i will jsut assign them with a character ... oh by the way did i mention i might have to dance too? haha never tried it so maybe i will and hopefully daniel doesnt get frustrated teaching me HAHA

and yea upcoming sunday ... ultimate frisbee(i spell it right this time thanks vivian) practise ... frisbee is fun to play but when u have to run more than u touch the frisbee IS NO FUN ~!! its exhausting argh ... mind as well get the best of it ...

and movie review ... my advise who ever that haven watch this awesome show ... GET YOUR BUTT OFF THE COUCH AND GO WATCH THIS MOVIE ... its fantastic ... the story might not be that amusing but its worth it to watch ... hopefully there is a second part to this movie ... looking forward to it ... watch this show with josh, rebecca, samuel and nathania ^^

as for this movie CJ7 ... if any of you love chinese comedy ... this is another show that is on my MUST watch list ... eventhough i expected more from stephen chow but this show will guarantee make u laugh ... watch this show with caleb and josh and its embarassing u know why? ... cause im the only one laughing so very LOUDLY among them ... ish im not watching comedy show with u guys no more man LOL

kungfu dunk ... some of u might hate it ... some of u might say its a so-so movie ... to me its nice ... maybe cause i love basketball too much and yea jay chou is my idol(dont PUKE) ... this show is basely denying the gravitational force of the earth ... cause its kinda fake how they jump HAHA ... its kinda like a comedy show too as u can see jay chou being a dumb idiotic kid in this movie ... and yea some part of this movie make no sense ... but its amazing hwo jay chou could have invited so many top hong kong stars to be in his movie ... so total respect to that

alright upcoming movies to watch ... IRONMAN ... SPIDERWICK ... INKHEART ... NARNIA ... BATMAN ...

this 5 movies is on my MUST WATCH list eventhough its not out yet ... i assure there wont be any regrets watching this 5 movies haha
till here then ... gonna go dota ~!!!

chao

random pic of me and caleb taking pics for our moral folio ... i miss wearing my school uniform sigh ...

The start of a NEW BLOG / feb 18

2008-02-18T03:13:00.000-08:00

hey people, first things first ... im back to blogging BECAUSE i have nothing better to do every single day ... ya everyone has been bugging me to get a job but haha im living my dream life right now ...

actually i am working right now ... my work is so hard and so exhausting, during my work i cant go online, i cant reply smses, i cant even eat and worst i cant have toilet breaks ... my job sucks right?? sigh my work occupies my social life. My work consist me of laying my head on the pillow, my body on a bed, my eyes shut and suffer the cold air from a machine ~!! haha YES my work is being a big bum at home

so its a new year ... YEAR OF THE RAT ... and for me to born in the year of the SNAKE, its not gonna be that well aint it? but too bad we christians dont believe in luck haha ... SO THANK GOD FOR THAT ... this year is kinda hectic for some of us people, especially me, my friends leaving penang to go further their studies, friends who were once so close just POOF and gone like magic, friends who suddenly ignored of our existance on earth and even friends who suddenly change cause of certain reasons, ya lifes a mess but hey we are living in it so mind as well get the best of it ...

so im currently leading a youth concert together with daniel tan and mark elwell, addition to that im jsut a new christian and im just glad that i dont have to do everything cause im new in this and i have great partners ... and yan choreographing the dance move, it was really great ... so yea there was an audition session on the 16th of february 2008 ... NOT EVERYONE TURN UP ... thats the frustrating part ish ish ~! but yea i guess it turned out well ... so now we just need a script and practises

anything else??? YES ~!!! march 18-19 the youth triple challenge isit? ya so there is this challenge among churches, ultimate freesbee(is that hwo u spell it?),captain ball and floorball ... ATTENTION floorball aint as easy as i thought ... its so brutal and tiring okay? so PRACTISE PRACTISE AND PRACTISE ... i have so many things to do ... and its all for church so i guess god is really trying to work in my life right now ... and im doing all this cause im doing it for god and no one else ... and pastor victor told me i have to join all 3 of the sports and the 3 sports will be held in the same day? SO THERE WONT BE A BREAK FOR ME ... GOSH

well i will stop here... till the next time BUBYE

i love my shoes